Thursday, February 21, 2008



do I like to be busy?

What a week its been again! I should have checked back when I last wrote, but I didn't, so hopefully I don't repeat myself too much!
What a nice surprise this morning, to wake up to the balmy temperature of -15 or so. And now, its up to -8. WoW! What a difference 24 hours makes. I seen the lunar eclipse last night, and it never fails to amaze me how nature works. It's so incredible to see the world around us, and how everything is made to be in its place! Evolution?? not!
I'm trying to recall what we've been up to this last week. I worked a couple of day shifts, and that seems to erase all memory of everything prior to the shifts. So much going on at work. Busy on ward, busy in ER, and alot of stuff happening with the extracurricular stuff-you know! Confidentiality, and I can't talk about it, but just imagine, and you're probably almost right! Every place of employment has its issues, doesn't it??
Last weekend was quiet with hockey. Kyle skated with some of his Winnipeg friends on Saturday, and he loved it! He's been waiting to connect with them, and was beaming as we left the rink! This week, Kyle's team is in their first round of league playoffs. They're tied at 1 game apiece, with the tie breaker tomorrow night. Whoever wins, moves on to the next round. Jayde's team has a bye in the first round,( did I spell that right?), and will start with their playoffs next week. Kyle's team had to deal with a few issues this week at a parent meeting last night. It's so difficult to deal with some stuff-people's feelings always get hurt-even with the best intentions. Oh, well, time to move on.
Farming-what should I say?? The cattle ad that we put in the paper last week, has had quite a few phone calls. Del has been showing our cattle a fair bit this week, and hopefully someone will take them off our hands. We have the vet booked to come preg check the cows in the next few days. Sure hope some of our friends show up to enjoy this experience! =) I have never seen this done before, but I guess I'll get to now. Actually, I wish I knew how to , or would like to learn how to do this. It intrigues me alot-I like doing this kind of thing. To me, its sad to see the cattle go-I'm going to miss watching the newborns, pulling the newborns, watching moms take care of their calves. It's awesome to see the cows nurture their babies! Well, hopefully the farmers coming to see the cows, after they're preg-checked, will buy them, take them off our hands, and will put a finger in the hole that's draining very quickly! I'd like to see some figures that show the reality of how much a livestock producer is losing on a daily basis, due to increased grain costs, and the high dollar value. I heard someone say today, one producer had lost $150,000 in the last year, in their cattle operation alone. Thats alot of cash!!
Lyssa raised the question on my last entry whether I enjoyed being this busy. It made me think. Not that I haven't wondered that before! You know, my philosophy regarding my life, is to do as much as possible for others that I can. We didn't have our children for us to sit by idly and watch life pass them by. That can be taken to extreme, but we do try to balance that for our kids. We only have our children for a very short time-those 16-18 yrs that the kids are our responsibility pass by so quickly. If there's a way to enable them to become responsible adults, we're trying to provide them with some of those experiences. The boys do well in school. They have to be active participants in the work of the house, yard, and farm. They have some very close friends, that hopefully will surround them with a lifetime of support. They love to play hockey, and learn valuable life lessons through the sport. They also have to have free time at home, to be able to sort out what they like to do for 'relax' time. This combination of providing a stable home envirnment for the family, and ensuring our lives outside of the home, does make it busy. Work is a necessary must-you need a paycheck to put food on the table! Love alone does not pay the bills! Of course, I love doing nothing at home. There are days when I am just not motivated to do anything! And some days I do nothing! Well, almost nothing. Do I like to be this busy? It's relative, I guess. Some people are much busier than I am, and others are not. Some days I catch myself and realize I 'm trying to do too much, and I have to try and slow down. I love to have an evening at home to read. I love to have a house full of company to enjoy. I love to go to a friends house and relax. I love to so shopping for a long day! I love to watch my kids enjoy time with their friends, be it hockey, swimming, or whatever. I love to go camping with my family, sit around a fire in the evening, listening to music, or listening to the bugs go by. I do know I do want to make a difference with what I do. I want people to know I care for them. I don't want to be so busy that people think they're not important enough for me to stop what I'm doing and spend time with, or do something for them. I don't know if that answers your question, Lyss, and I know I've rambled, but maybe that's a bit of a window in why I run around crazy somedays!
Time to get in the shower so I can go to town and pay some bills, buy milk, and see the chiro once again. Have a good day everyone!

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Happy Valentine's Day

The annual love day-here it is! This year is a little different for us for celebrating this day. Del has had the flu all week, and is not quite in 'romance mode'. So, what did we do to celebrate today? Del & I went to town this morning, and I went for a haircut. When he picked me up, Del had bought me a huge bouquet of flowers. We went home and I set the large vase of flowers in the dining room. We had lunch, and Del had a nap, while I made lemon pie for supper. Then, we again went to Arborg, this time for Del's doctor appt. I wanted the good doctor to check Del's chest, cuz he just can't quit coughing. Once again, we went home, with a load of meds, this time. At home, I set out to make a 'special' supper for my family. Yes, I made a real supper, again! Sweet & sour meatballs, mashed potatoes, a lettuce salad, and of course, the lemon pie for dessert. I even had dishes done by 620! Now, we've enjoyed a quiet evening at home. So, even tho we didn't do anything 'special', we actually had a special day, being peaceful. And, Del is finally starting to feel better!
This week had been quite sedate for our family. No hockey games, only practises. Kyle had the stomach flu on Tuesday, and missed only 1 day of school. Of course, this would have to be the day that Del is scheduled for a wisdom tooth extraction in Wpg. How fortunate for us, one of my nieces was home on study break, and agreed to stay home with Kyle, while we went to Wpg. So, while Del was popping meds for the head cold/flu thingy, he shopped with me in Costco and superstore, and then konked out in the vehicle while I shopped in Walmart.
Things are on the upswing now, the flu is leaving this home, the temperature is supposed to rise tomorrow, and the weekend is on its way. For us, that involves, company tomorrow night for supper, hockey on Saturday, my parents are apparently coming out for the weekend, and I'm working 4 hrs on Saturday afternoon.
As this is a public forum, I can't really discuss any work issues here. Does anyone ever get tired of the endless political bureacracy thats sometimes involved in working for the government? I wish more people would actually care about what they do, and how they do it. Here's a plug for my place of employment- I work with some excellent nurses. I also work with some amazing doctors. I think we have team of nurses and doctors who care about what they do. Yes, sometimes we're a little short with people, we're not perfect. Long hours, overtime, patient situations-they all add up to create some stressful moments. But, deep down, we all really care about what we do. Have you expressed appreciation to your physician lately-for putting in craziy hours, and dealing with even crazier situations? My suggestion is-be grateful for the medical people that work long hours to try and keep people safe and healthy.
Enough cuddles, hey? I'm watching Roseanne right now. Remember that show? The good ole days! Darlene and her attitude!
I wish everyone a wonderful Valentine's Day. Remember those relationships take work, but the work is worth it, (usually!). To all my wonderful friends-I love you-Thanks for the friendships!
To my kids-you're the best-I love you! To my wonderful husband-I love you, and love being with you!
Good night everyone.

Monday, February 11, 2008

Quick update!

I'm going to make this a quick note-as quick as I can be. This last week has been all it was supposed to be, and that! BUSY! I did a count this morning, and I concluded that our family has been at 12 hockey games. And I worked 3 day shifts. Somewhere in between we slept, ate, did laundry, looked after cattle, and all the other little things that have to happen to make a family function.
The boys have finished regular season play, and are waiting to hear who their teams are playing in the playoffs. So hopefully they will get a couple nights of practises in before the games begin again.
Today, I'm home. Well, I did a quick trip to town for a chiropractor appt, and then back home. No other stops. Now I'm going to surprise my family with some home cooking and baking. The brown bun dough is rising, and I also mixed up a recipe of whole wheat cinnamon raisin bread. Mmmm, it's going to be good. I'm still trying to decide what else to bake. If I've got the oven warmed up, I'm going to make it worth it, and bake a few more things. Then, I need to decide what to cook for supper. I've gotten into a bad habit. It's called eating on the go, and not at home either. It's been so long since I've cooked at home, I don't feel like starting again! =) But, I will. Maybe hamburger roll, or something. Gotta be beef, you know!
This along with doing laundry, cleaning the bathrooms, cleaning the floors, and general tidying-my boys won't know whats going on! They have been so helpful with maintaining the house when I'm not around much. I hope my future daughter-in-laws will thank me someday!
Off to bake some muffins...

Thursday, February 7, 2008

Where did it go??

Here I am, typing, again! Last night, I had done up a post labelled, my rant of the day, or something. As I pressed post, it seemed to vanish, and it actually did. I couldn't find it anywhere. Maybe its a good thing, because I made some heated comments during my rant. Something to the tune of 'crazy people', and farming issues! So, yes, it's gone, and I've cooled off a little. Goes to show you, you should always wait 24 hrs before dealing with an issue, right? That's the motto in hockey, anyways!
This week is once again action packed. Between both boys playing hockey, and going to work, there's no dull moments at this farm house. One more 12 hr shift tomorrow, then its time to crash with a good sleep. And then off to the rink all weekend. The boys teams have had an interesting winter/week. They both seem to win some, and then lose some. Just like reality, good and bad. Both teams did not make it to their provincials tournaments. Its been a few years since we've not gone, so its a good thing I didn't get vacation for those weekends, and then just be home. I'm sure we'll find something to fill those time slots. The teams finish their regular season games this weekend, and then start into league playoffs. We'll see how that goes!
Yesterday, I had an interesting experience at work. I had a moment where I stood back and watched someone, and had to wonder whether to laugh, or get mad. I wondered how someone could be like that. Do people think the world revolves around them? Are they so special, that no one elses needs count? It makes me laugh, but its really not funny! I actually chose to be quiet. I'm sure my mouth hung open, and I think I might have shook my head. I was so shocked that someone could be so ??self-centered?? I guess we all have moments we'd like to take back.
Some of my ranting last night focused on the craziness of farming in this modern day. Someone mentioned last week that the cost of diesel in 1971 was 5 cents a litre. Compared to today-we pay 85cents to $1/litre. To sell a bushel of wheat in those days-you got around $5; today, its like $4.50/bushel. Cost of fertilizer, I don't know what it cost then, but last spring it was $400/Tonne-this spring, speculation is $600, and I've heard up to $800/Tonne. Crazy, isn't it? Our cows, which we are trying to sell, apparently they're only worth half of what we bought them for 1 year ago. And it's not because they're in rough shape. Apparently this is the effect of the strong Canadian dollar. I like to shop south of the border with our strong dollar, but it really sucks when you look at the effects on our farming business. Oh, yes, I do have to add, the canola price is really good, but please take into effect the cost of diesel and fertilizer, and it doesn't bring you that much in the end. I had to add that, because some people think the 'farmers have it made', well, don't get me going on that right now!
There's my rant in a nutshell. It wasn't so bad was it? Now, I'm going to bed, as I'm beat!! Enjoy the sunshine!

Sunday, February 3, 2008

i need to organize my thoughts

So, here I am, couldn't sleep, and I decided I should get some of my thoughts out of my head, so I could relax and get some sleep eventually. Maybe I should just kick myself for the evening nap I had, or maybe it has something to do with working night shift and being at the rink late the last couple of nights. Whatever.... maybe I should do a factual update first. Maybe no one really cares what occupies my time, but here goes anyway. My last post had me whining about my migraine, and yes, I've had a sickening headache almost all week. So I was very thankful for the relaxing weekend at home last weekend! Here's last weeks schedule-
Saturday-home
Sunday-home, this is the first winter weekend I can remember being at home with the kids, with no hockey. I didn't go anywhere-felt like crap! Del had to load bales all weekend. Trying to clean up farm stuff before heading off to work!
Monday-off to the chiropractor, home and I took Jayde to practice in the evening, Del took Kyle to his game, even tho he didn't play due to his injury. But, he's a team player and went behind the bench with his team!
Tuesday-home during the day-trying to work on catching up on farm paperwork. I do all the farm books on computer, and I procrastinate with this job until it piles up too much, and then I spend days and get it done. In the evening Kyle's team had a game and so we went and watched his team lose. Kyle didn't enjoy that at all. He was quite upset that he was injured and not able to help his team. He actually left the rink 'crying' and saying he would be playing next game-as if he's that big a difference! :=)
Wednesday-what did I do???? worked on farm books, napped, read, cooked, ate Advil/Tylenol all day, and then took Jayde to his hockey game in the evening. His team lost, but Jayde had two of his teams 3 goals. He was happy for that!
Thursday-time to get ready for work. Yes, I finished enough of the farm books to do my GST return. Off to the chiropractor again in the afternoon to find relief for the neck/back/headachy thing! All this pain is sure to lead to some long term results, I hope! Del & Jayde left at 5 for Jaydes away game, and I dropped off Kyle and Blayze for their away practise. Then it was off to work for a 12 hr night shift! I sure so love those! Not! actually, I don't mind the night shift-it's the lack of ability to sleep during shifts thats the difficulty!
Friday-home from work and dropped into bed-napped off and on till noon. Note to anyone who tries to work night shift-don't drink too much during your shift, cuz it all catches up when you're trying to sleep! So up at noon, and what did I do?? not much, can't get motivated. Oh, yeah, Jayde was home from school, with the stomach flu. Del called me at work at 3 am, gagging, cuz jayde was puking. Didn't make it to the toilet and someone had to clean it up. Ha, ha-Del apparently couldn't handle it and Jayde had to help him clean up-lucky for me I'm at work! My mom & dad stopped by Fri afternoon-that was nice. They hadn't been by in awhile. And, then, I went back to work for another 12 hr night! Del & the boys actually stayed home to relax.
Saturday-home from work and slept till 11 am. Up and in the shower so we can go to the rink! I took Jayde to the league all star game for his level. Was his teams safety-there's no better place to be during a game, than on the bench! smells great, wonderful comments, the feel of the game.....mmmmmm.... Kyle got picked up by a dear friend for his game, as Del was once again loading bales. What would we do without good friends??? and, yes, Kyle did play, and loved being back on the ice! After Jayde's game, I came home for 20', picked up Del and went for a quick supper to Chicken Chef, before the Ice Dawgs game. I love spending time with these kids-ok, they're older kids! But its alot of fun! Stopped at work for a chat after the game, and then finally home! I think my eyes were feeling alittle tired/dry by this time. Contacts!!
Sunday-TODAY! I have to admit-I slept in. I was just too tired to bear getting up early enough to get it together to go to church. Hey, I did not have a headache today. Maybe it was worth it to sleep in! My family was coming over today, so we did some house cleanup this morning. I had put a couple of roasts and potatoes in the oven last night, so lunch was on-simple! My parents, brothers, their wives, and some of their kids came over. Let me think-15 people, right?? Great easy lunch-roast, baked potatoes, caesar salad, some nut/orange/lettuce salad, bean salad, bread, buns, and a variety of desserts like lemon pie, choc. cake, german choc. cake, rhubarb crisp, ice cream..... it was so good. Thank you to the family and Sobey's for the good food! And the afternoon was very good-we even visited, and didn't sleep! Michy and I traded back/neck massages-wow, she's good with her hands!! Everyones gone by 5, and Del & the boys watched the Super bowl, while I read, and watched the half time show. and then I fell asleep reading, so, now I'm awake!
Why is it that when I sleep all night, I could nap all day. But when I work nights, I can't sleep during the day! Something wrong with that picture.
So, my family celebrated my moms 67th birthday today. She's amazing! I wish I had her energy and ability to get things done! Actually her b-day isn't until the 12th, but they came out to visit this weekend, so I thought I'd invite family over to celebrate since she was here. And, we discussed the upcoming 50th wedding anniversary, this June! How many people do you know can celebrate their 50th when they're only 67. Other than me, that is!! We actually discussed this rationally with each other. And, I think we made progress on plans! We will celebrate the event the first weekend in July-hopefully God will bless us with a rain free weekend. And hopefully the spring won't be a wet one, so we can have this event outdoors, without everyone having to wear hip waders!
So, this next week is about hockey and work. I'm typing in red, b/c the boys hockey teams are red/black/white, and I'm pysching up for their teams to win this week! Hopefully! Kyles team plays their 3rd game tomorrow, of a best of 3 series. That means whoever wins goes on to play the next round of playoffs-provincials. Jayde plays a league game at home tomorrow night. Does anyone care what we're doing this week?? Here goes-Monday-chiro appt, and hockey in two towns. Tues-massage appt(to relax those muscles!!!) and hockey in two different towns again! Wed-12 hr day shift, and Jayde either has a practise or game in the evening, and Kyle has basketball practise at 745 am. Thurs-8 hr day shift and Kyle has a game in the evening. I don't think Jayde has hockey. Fri-12 hr day shift, Jayde has a game, I think, and the Ice Dawgs play. Saturday-Kyle has an away game, and Jayde has a home game in the evening. Is anyone wondering why I'm getting headaches and keeping the local massage therapist in business?? She keeps my head on straight, so I can wake up and go wherever the day takes me!
No, I'm not complaining-I could be at home, with nothing to do, and driving myself crazy over that! That's just not an option!
I feel like I should follow up with something deep, but don't know what to say. My niece got me thinking the other day, about ethical dilemnas. Anyone feel like they've had an ethical/moral dilemna? I guess it depends where you go, or what you do, to see what you're faced with? How about-how do you know you're doing what you're supposed to be doing? Right job??? How do you know?? Maybe we're missing an opportunity, just because we're ignoring a little voice! When is it a good enough reason to switch jobs? How do you deal with a dilemna involving a good friend? Is it better to put up with something, than to discuss it, and risk friendship? Maybe no one else has these kind of questions or situations that arise, I don't know. Maybe its being in the mid 30's-are you supposed to think about it so much? I mean the questions, not the age. No, my age isn't bugging me! When is it too late to go back to school? You know, I've always had this dream about becoming a therapist/counsellor/pyschiatrist-sick, huh?? Too late to go to school, not! But, would it be worth it?? Maybe I just want too much. There's so much I'd like to do. How about a funeral director? Mortician? Rock singer?? :=) (Yeah, that's pushing it! I know) But Nursing, now that's fulfilling-some days. Maybe its good to do what you've done for a long time. I've listened to some people talk about their employment dilemnas, I know alot of people think about this... oh, what to do?
Go to sleep, get up and go to work, I guess! Paycheck! Somedays, it drives you. And thats okay. Cuz, love isn't buying the groceries!
Man, so many words... I guess I should talk more during the day. I'm logging off now, to make my 5oth anniversary to do list. If any one has some ideas, please let me know! Have a good week! Be safe, and share a smile with the person next to you-it might be the only one they get all day!~