Some favorite pictures from December

Jayde & Matthew
Del & 3 of his brothers

Matthew

Me & my hubby!

Rowan & Del

Friesen dinner-Jayde & Abigail

Del & Kathi

Terri & Amber

Jayde is ready to eat!!!

Dad & Del-relaxing after lunch

Dad checking out the toy!

Me-unwrapping a present from Jayde

The boys checking out their new clothes.

Del watching the boys.....

Alyssa & Bria

Kelly & Tyrone

Michelle & Alyssa

Stacey & Darren

Mich & I

Whew!!!! Putting pictures on here is a chore!!!! And I put one up of Kyle and a couple of his cousins, and its disappearred! :-( This high speed of mine is the slowest ever!!!! So please enjoy the few pics that I've managed to get here! These are just a few of the wonderful family members that we've spent time with this last month.

Merry Christmas!

Ahhh, its a Monday morning, and I'm not at work. The kids are at home, sleeping. Del is off to work. And, yes, I'm up. For some reason I couldn't really sleep last night, and I am up and about this morning; even had porridge for breakfast! I'm actually on vacation right now as we speak. This is my third day of holidays. I booked the week off, right before Christmas, cuz I just can't ask for vacation right over the holidays. This is my week of fun in the hot sun, wading in the ocean, enjoying tropical breezes.........yeah, right. That certainly didn't pan out, but I'm still having a good time. It's a good time to be at the rink, and do spring cleaning. Yup, you read that right! We are early for next year!!! This house is getting spring cleaned long before its time!! And as for the rink, between both boys, in the last 7 days, we've done 4 practises, and 7 games. ( And, Del worked his full time job all week, and yes, I worked 3 nights last week!) Practise again tonight for the boys, and then its time for some time away from that hallowed hall! I've persuaded the boys to willingly pitch in with this flurry of cleaning. It's called bribery. Let's get it done by Tuesday noon, and then we're off so they can shop in the city. It's amazing what 2 teens and a mom can get done if you give them the right bait! And here I'm blogging and wasting time, right??? Nah, this is called warming up for the event. The boys are 'sleeping' in till 0830, and then we're off and running or scrubbing.

Meatballs are made-compliments of the boys first chore after school was done on Friday. Butter tarts are in the freezer. Cabbage rolls are made. Now, just bring on the 24th. We are ready for games, food, relaxation, visiting, and all that other good stuff that comes along with family celebrations.

I told a friend yesterday, I wasn't sure what to blog about, cuz our lives are rather predictable. Work, school, rink. And do it all over again. And then, here I am a couple of paragraphs later, and don't know if I've said anything worth mentioning. If you're still reading, I'm impressed. Or maybe you don't have a life either. :-) I can't really talk about work. Thats an effect of working in a small town hospital, where everyone wants to know everything, and if they can't find out, they make up something that sounds good. And due to confidentiality issues, it just wouldn't be good. Work has been very busy. Until a week ago. Our compliment of four docs has dwindled to 2 for Christmas holidays, as they've traveled home to be with families. So, that limits what we can safely do in the facility. But, as always, we are prepared for anything and everything. Our doors are never closed-always open for business. And you never know what will come thru the door when the buzzer goes at 3 am!

On that note, I think I'm going to get going on my project. I aim to make that Thrift Shop pile grow today; It's a good feeling to sort out and make room!

On behalf of my husband & children, I'd like to wish all of you a safe and happy holiday. Enjoy the time spent with family friends! Merry Christmas to all!

thoughts of mom

Stacey's & Darren's wedding was beautiful!!! I'm at work, or I could post pics. Beautiful colors, beautiful decorating, beautiful attire. And no one fainted. Wonderful food. Nice size crowd. What more can I say? Congratulations to the bride and groom!

My dad stopped by work tonight. He hung around and read the paper and such. He's like part of the family here. We feed him and visit with him. Everyone knows hes my dad and caters to him. We had an interesting conversation. We discussed the wedding, kids, family, and whatever else. Then we discussed mom. Good things. Like how it used to be. Reminiscing, you know. Its interesting, cuz i had thought earlier in the week how I would write about her, and then we talked about her tonight. So, i thought I'd drop a few lines about my mom.

She would have loved this last week. Nothing like planning a function to make her happy. Food, decorations, clothes.....yeah, that was certainly exciting for her! She would have been so proud to see her granddaughter walk down the aisle. To be given away by her parents. My mom would have cried tears of joy and sadness, all at the same time. (Instead, I did it for her!) She would have ironed and cleaned dads clothes and shoes. It would be exact. She would have held her great-grandchildren tight, and been so proud of their beautiful walk/stroll down the church aisle. She would have smiled and cried at the slide show that was shown at the wedding. She would have taste tested all that amazing food. She would have brought food to Rol & Laureen's house, even tho they probably had too much already. She would have loved buying a wedding present for Stacey. She would have hugged and kissed that girl till it would have been embarrassing! She would have worn a wonderful new dress for the occasion-and would have told dad she had it a long time already! :-) And those sweet baby peas-those were her favorite!!

Yeah, I miss my mom. I am doing fine actually and I get through most everything without too much ado. Its just these family events where we see everyone surrounded by the people they love, and we are reminded of the ones that aren't there. And yes, Mom and Katelyn are in a better place, and we wouldn't wish them back. But seriously, we do miss them! It's not the same without them.

Christmas season, and its time to think of what the menu will be for the Friesen family. I asked some family today what we should have, and of course, its potatoes and meatballs. Then with a little thought, came the suggestion of egg rolls. Grandma loved to buy and serve egg rolls. They were her favorite. So I guess we'll continue on in the tradition. Comfort food. See what else we come up with. Whatever we decide, there will be plenty of it, like always, cuz mom taught us well!

There's some thoughts about my mom. There's so many more, but if I continue this, I'll have to find a box of Kleenex, and with my luck some emergency will show up at the door, and I'll be unfit to care for them. So, I'm logging off for some other day.......

Appreciate the people around you while you have them....... xxoo

December already!

No, I've not fallen off the face of the earth....... still here. It's a rat race of work and hockey.

A whole month has gone by and I'm trying to think of something new and exciting to post, but i'm not coming up with anything exciting! So, back to the regular stuff.

Jayde and Kyle are either at school, at the rink, or at home in front of the TV. Teenage boys, or what!!?? Hockey schedules are definitely picking up. Other than Jayde's team right now. They played last week, and some fistacuffs occurred. Therefore they are short of players, and unable to play their games until everyone can commit to be there. Next week will be makeup week, I imagine. Kyle had a game last evening, will tonight, and again on Sunday. He was in a tournament last weekend. Thankfully, Jayde has finished volleyball, and Kyle will be done today. His volleyball team is in zones today. Apparently next week, they both start basketball......why not??!! The good thing they'll be together and no separate driving will be required!

Del is in a crunch at work. Big ordering deadline for discounts for the farmer! So, order up your canola and corn seed! Now!! We are such a last minute society, eh?? This last week and the next are busy with this kind of pressure.

I've been working. And I'm at work tonight. Finally, most of my patients are sleeping. Not all, mind you. Oh, no. Some would rather sleep during the day, and be awake at night. Cycles are messed up.

Alrighty then......its now 3 hours later. Those last few 'flew' by as we had an ambulance call, and therefore spent a few hours in the ER.

One of my nieces is getting married this Saturday. This is Friesen grandchild # 3 that is tying the knot. The family is expanding! This is going to be a formal affair, as it is a Saturday evening wedding; its going to be beautiful. I've been out of the loop with this one, as I've been at work, and the family is overly capable of doing it all! Think we will show up and enjoy the event!! :-)

We've had a sprinkling of snow the last few days. Just enough to lightly cover the ugly ground. If we're lucky that's all we'll be blessed with. I wouldn't mind at all if that was all the snow that was sent our way!! Too good to be true, probably.

Signing off now as work calls! 21 days till Christmas!!!

Sleepy!

What a beautiful weather day today; hard to believe its Nov. 8!! I think it actually got up to plus 10! The sun was shining. I love going to the rink with short sleeves! So much more fun than going bundled up in parka and boots! Jayde played hockey today. They tied at 5. Was alot of fun watching them play! Kyle played yesterday, and I think they lost by a goal or two. Good effort by his team. I had to laugh tonight, cuz I couldn't remember what the score was or who they had played. My memory is like a sieve!!

I'm at work tonight. Where else would I be?? Ha! There are worse places to be. And yes, we are feeling the influence of H1N1. Parents are worrying about their sick children. And older children, adults, are worrying about their senior and aged parents. So, thats indicative of how the winter will be. Snotty nose and off to the doctor! Yes, I did 'give' in and get my H1N1 shot. Its supposed to be the best preventative measure, so I offered up my arm. And, I have decided when the children are accepted onto the qualifying list, that they will go to. And, I'm hoping Del will go when other adults are accepted. I'd rather be safe than sorry at this point. Someone told me a story about the epidemic in the 1920's, and mentioned that families would have done anything at that point to save loved ones, and that persuaded me in the right direction. For me at least. Everyone gets to make their own decision on this one!

The boys are still busy at school. And at home. Actually not at home much, cuz they're not there much. Jayde is almost done with volleyball at school. Tomorrow is Zones for his age group, and then they're done. So then all he has left is one more week of volleyball with the Varsity group. He has loved the experience of playing up with them!! They played in a tournament yesterday, and he came home excited and full of stories of the skill he saw from other areas!! Kyle's team has practise a couple times a week. Their schedule is not quite as grueling. Both boys have hockey practise a couple times a week. With a minimum of one game a week. Jayde actually had three games this last week.

My sister took a fall last weekend, which unfortunately has put her in a hospital bed for a few weeks. Multiple fractures will certainly slow her down for a little while. Took my dad and Michelle to visit her on Tuesday. Had 'fun' strong arming her into a wheelchair with the physio boys! Michelle was a sweetheart and helped with all the little tasks. My poor dad tagged along pushing the 'pole' and trying to keep up!

Yesterday morning my brothers, their wives, and I spent some time at dads house. (And Kyle, of course!) We sorted and cleaned. Didn't take long to get a few projects done! That fifth wheel trailer of dads is getting a little costly to heat at this point, and he has been, and will be spending more time in town.

Thats my update for now. I'm tired already and I have 7 hours to go in this shift!! Ugh!! Have a patient that is refusing to settle to bed and is wandering the halls. That should keep me entertained! Hope you all are having a sound sleep! lucky you!! I'll get my nap in the morning while the phone rings and the sun shines!

Belated happy birthday!

There isn't anything that makes a mother prouder than talking about her kids, and I'm no exception to that! My firstborn had a birthday 2 days ago! 15 years old already!!!! How can it be???? From a forever labor, to surgery, and then out of me.....came a red haired, blue-eyed, beautiful, perfect baby boy. Two days later, we were home to feed that child every 2-3 hours. 15 years later, not much has changed, we're still feeding him every 2-3 hours! :-) Jayde is a typical 'oldest' child. He takes responsibility well, he's 'wise' beyond his years, but he balances that all with a crazy sense of humor, his ability to be 'heard above the crowd', and his joy for doing what he loves. Not much gets in his way when he decides to put his mind to something. My worry 4 years ago with his accident and scarring, has been put to rest-he has plenty of self-confidence!!!! He has an intense love for sports-playing and watching. He loves music. He has musical ability-even though he's much too cool to show it right now. :-) He can cook and clean. He can haul bales and work the fields. He can drive. And............. he stilll hugs and kisses his mother goodnight. He's my firstborn, and I love him so much. Belated Happy Birthday to Jayde!!!!

Moving on.........had a fun night at work the other night. Have been at work so much in the last few months, and it was so nice to be able to have a night there of good laughs with good people! For the most part, all shifts are okay, cuz we make it that way. But Wednesday night was a treat, as we played cards, visited, and laughed till we cried!! Thank you to my wonderful friend, Dawnett, and my special niece, Michelle, for making those memories!!!

We finished combining oats, and baling straw on Thursday evening. This was after the snow flattened what was remaining of our oats crop. But we tried to trim off what we could. It's a wrap! As true farmer fashion, we look ahead to 'next year'. Surely, next year has to be better!!!!
Del is out on the front yard right now, scraping dirt, trying to make some ditches on the front yard, and filling in some of the low spots. This front yard of ours is a masterpiece in the works. It just doesn't look like it yet. But it will get there. Give us a few years, and hopefully the floods will drain appropriately and the grass and flowers will be beautiful once again. I have visions of dry stream beds, and swings, and all such good things. Dreaming is good, isn't it????

A very good friend of ours is having a birthday on Monday!!! Andrea, you are such a special woman! Your ability to multi-task with 5 kids is amazing!!! We wish for you-a truly special day on Monday! So, any of you who know Andrea-please, wish her well. Happy Birthday, Andrea-we love you!!!

Friends and family-basic and important necessities in life. Love them, hold them close!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Quick note, cuz I'm at work, but I can't resist to put this out there!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BIG BROTHER, ROL!!!!

Have a wonderful day at work!

Thanksgiving '09

Into October already.......how time goes!! Between working fulltime+, harvesting, and chauffeuring the boys, the days are getting shorter and definitely getting cooler. September was such a treat after the summer coolness. We certainly enjoyed the sunshine and balmy temps. Now its from spring weather directly to winter, it seems. Forecasting rain and snow for the next few days. Time will tell what will actually develop.

The boys are attending school faithfully, even tho they still insist they are not enjoying it. :-) With Jayde being cut from city hockey tryouts, he has taken on the role of playing JV volleyball, as well as playing with the varsity team. Last weeks tournament saw him coming home with a huge smile due to the challenges of playing against other tall kids. It also brought him home with another injury. The weekend before did him in with strep thoat and a neck/shoulder injury following a hit in hockey. This weekend a jump at the volleyball net, to block the ball, resulted in the opposing team member landing on Jayde's leg on the way down. Resulting in a bruised and very painful leg. But a good tape job, and he played the day to completion, on one foot. And with a smile!!! Kyle started hockey again last night with the regular minor hockey league. His age group at school has started after school volleyball as well. So, both boys are loving their after school activities. WEdnesday night, had them both at youth at church. They need a parent to drive them around full-time!!! No joke!

Del's job is picking up steam. Its amazing how some farmers can bounce back, and once again plan ahead to next year. Yes, its time for farmers to make cropping decisions for the next year, and seed needs to be ordered accordingly. I'm so proud of my husband, for doing an exceptional job at this!!!

Me......I'm just trying to fit in where its needed. I tried to help del with hauling grain and baling straw on my days off. Yes, we did get some combining done between breakdowns and rain showers. Work has been busy. Full house. And, of course, not enough staff. Sick calls do not people available to work them. Thus, the full timers are expected to pick up the slack. This has been a challenge. I'm curious how the fall and winter will go, with the expected flu season coming. Someone needs to be able to work when someone is sick.......

Thanksgiving weekend this weekend. Always known for good food and family time. Always plenty to be thankful for. First Thanksgiving without Mom. This was her kind of weekend. Always cooking up a storm, and enjoying the family coming together. Went into her pantry the other day and collected some food she had put away, and so she still contributes to the food going onto the table. Not everyone will be able to make it home for the Friesen get together. Too bad. Thats what happens when kids grow up, families enlarge and change........It will still be good, tho!

I can hardly wait to get home to sleep this morning!!! Crazy night shift. I'm stuck here at least an hour longer than my shift as no RN is available to relieve me when my shift is over. Who knows when I'll get away!!! I can always persuade myself Its been a good sleep....

So much to be thankful for today!!! Love my husband and kids!! Love my family and friends!!! Thankful for a warm home!!! Thankful for the beautiful wildlife that crossed the yard yesterday-those deer were amazing! Thankful for a freezer full of food! Thankful for a job that pays! Thankful for a vehicle that gets me home from work! Thankful for the beautiful leaves on the trees!! The list could go on and on.......

Happy Thanksgiving!

The sun is shining!!!

Not sure what to write about. There's a couple things confirmed in my mind, but not sure its something for public viewing. Oh, well.....here goes one. Politics in hockey is alive and well. Yes, the boys have been to a couple hockey weekends, and have had a wonderful time. Seriously its not about how you do, or the potential, or anything like that. Its about sucking up, connections with someone, and probably what kind of financial status you have. Am I wrong???? Maybe. But thats my viewpoint. And thats been the story thru the years. There's always a sliver of light at the end of the tunnel, but that gets kiboshed again. Not sure where Jayde will play this year as above details are reigning strong. If he's not good enough, just say so. But if you want to include someone else who is just not doing as well, and he doesn't, it raises questions. ANd Kyle, didn't expect him to make it to a different team this year, as he is simply too young, but numbers in our home town look lean, so time will tell what happens there.

My second confirmation is -people are generally crazy. Yeah, that is what I wrote. Maybe its the age, or maybe its the state of affairs in this part of the country. I don't know. Selfish, self-serving, egotistical, psychotic, and unrealistic people. Wake up already!! What happened to helping your neighbours, loving thru thick and thin, trust, and all those traditional values that have seemed to become old-fashioned and have disappeared??!! We need to start a movement of genuine, caring attitudes.

I had a third confirmation, but can't remember what it is now...... :-)

This month has been sunny for the most part. And it has been such a blessing!!! Sunshine and warmth. Beautiful July weather!! The top of the ground has dried for the most part, the exception still being the large bodies of water that had accumulated the last year. But the front yard is finally not holding water. Have been able to cut grass, and Del actually got to straighten out some of the ruts in the front yard. Now to find dirt to haul into the low spots. Big project, and hopefully the weather will hold to get into it. But, first harvest. And that is just great! Not! Had parked the combine last fall, and it was ready to head right back to the field. No repairs needed. Until we took it out of the shop and into the yard for greasing and then unable to start it. After much investigation, looks like an internal problem of antifreeze and oil mixing in places that shouldn't be doing that. In technical terms-the heart and lungs of the machine are messed up and the blood is not sending out oxygenated blood. Therefore the heart cannot function under this strain and correct surgery is needed to repair malfuncioning valves. Or in mechanics terms-the head of the engine must be cracked and will need to be replace. Unable to start the machine, and needs to be towed to a shop. And due to no system functioning, the steering and brakes do not work. That means towing does not work as cannot make it around corners. So, someone needs to load that sucker and haul it there. Hopefully tomorrow morning. Yeah, the crop that is out there is ready to come off and no machine to take it off with. Ugh!!! Patience is a virtue that is in short supply at our house right now! But the sun is still shining!

My dad went on a 5 day trip with my sister to visit his brother. Very nice for them to get away together. Got a text from them the morning they flew out. My sister texts me saying 'Grandpa lost his phone'. I text her back, 'where are you'? She responds by saying shes in an airport waiting for their next flight. So, how do you find a little phone in a very large and busy airport. I tried phoning his cell and this ladies voice answers. She had found the phone on the plane and was turning it in to the front counter. So, yes, there are nice people left in this world. And , yes, my dad did get his phone back from her. My response to my boys was-"90% of people in this world do actually care and try, its the other 10% that mess it up!" Don't know if any of that is true, but it sounded good to me.

My goodness, I don't write for a few days, and then it all comes out like verbal diarrhea. or written diarrhea in this case!

Work is busy as always. And political. Politics is alive and well there too. The system may be about patient care, but somedays its hard to tell thats why we do what we do. A while back, someone said, 'the tail is wagging the dog', and that holds true in my mind.

I need to get going and catch up here at home so I can farm and nurse for the next 8 days. Laundry, cook, clean, yardwork........and I'm off to make a little dent in that list.

This'n that

from water-logged fields/yards/ditches/roads..........

to working night shift. Ya, Michelle and I get to work together sometimes. And we always have a great time!

YTy & Kelly's wedding

to dad's 73rd birthday party at Rog & Anita's

to holding individual mosquito coils to fend off the monstrous swarms of mosquitoss!!

Wedding!! Congratulations Ty & Kelly!

Yay!!!!! August 28-Ty's wedding day! How exciting! The 2nd Friesen grandchild is getting married today! I'm so proud of Ty and Kelly-they have come so far. Their growth and maturity are truly something that they are to be commended for! It's a bittersweet day-thinking of grandma and Katelyn not being here in person. They would have loved this day! But, they are here in spirit. It's a day to focus on joy and celebration! Two kids making a public commitment. A fun evening with family and friends! Will be wonderful!

Two weeks have gone by quickly. My vacation is drawing to a close. Should be back tomorrow, but I took banked time so I could spend one more day with family after the wedding. As it turns out, Kyle has hockey tomorrow, and I will be taking him. It's a tryout of sorts for him. Saturday and Sunday. It's more of a look see for the team, as its the first year he is able to skate with them, and has to be a pure superstar to make it at his age. And he may be my superstar, but certainly not one for everyone else! :-) Certainly a good experience. The boys have been running all summer, and gradually increasing the amount of physical exercise. They are now at running 3 miles, skipping 15 minutes and then lifting weights. Don't know if thats enough, but it has certainly helped them stay in skating shape. Jaydes endurance last weekend was greatly improved from what it has been. Its been good to see them shave time off their runs!

Back to work for me on Sunday. Good and bad, I guess. Good for the paycheck and bad for the sleep. Have to set an alarm!

Maybe I should give on update on my dad-he seems to be doing well. He is still spending a fair amount of time at his camper. Its easier for him to pass his evenings when he can be in the country, close to family. We did that switcharound in his house, and that has helped him be able to spend a few nights there as well. He has been busy volunteering at the Thrift Shop, and helping his kids with odd projects. Helped Roger with cutting grass and getting ready for the wedding. He needs to feel like he's contributing in some way, and is looking for ways to help others. Good to see him doing stuff.

We went camping last week for another 5 nights. Another wet campground. Took it easy for a couple of days and then we moved to another campground, to where Jayde was having hockey tryouts for a junior A team. He is eligible to skate with them at their camp but too young to actually play for them. Was an excellent experience. He was playing with other guys, ages 15-19. He did not look out of place, and he loved it. Coaches spoke to each player after their last skate, and gave him advice of what to work on and then told him he had had a very good camp. Good news for him. Extra incentive to keep working out and working on his game. Don't know if he'll ever advance beyond this towns hockey, but he'd be one happy boy if he could!

Friendship-thats been on my mind alot lately. What is a true friend???? I don't have any great answers or wise admonitions. I do know that people will always let people down. Thats a given. Remember the saying, "You can't choose your family, but you can choose your friends."? Friends are the people you choose to surround yourself with. To relax with; to talk to; to laugh with; make suppers with and for; to go camping with; to have a weekend at a hotel; to text; to send jokes to; to be there when its really rough; to call when you lose a family member; to unload your ugly day; ......... The list is never ending. What happens when a friend lets you down?????? Love and keep loving. Thats the hardest thing, cuz you simply don't have to keep up that relationship...... Is it true friendship????? Some days are certainly easier to be a friend than others. But it shouldn't be that way. Thick and thin, bad and good. One of my favorite quotes speaks to the connection between friends, and thats why its at the bottom of my blog, but I've included it here as well.

Don Marquis:There is nothing we like to see so much as the gleam of pleasure in a person's eye when he feels that we have sympathized with him, understood him. At these moments something fine and spiritual passes between two friends. These are the moments worth living.

And thats why we love and maintain relationships with our friends. They make it worth it. Those are the people we will be rocking with side by side in the personal care home some day. (lovely thought, isn't it??? drooling, pullups, and open back dresses!!) With that mental picture, I'm closing this thought process!

Have a wonderful weekend. Get out there and enjoy the sunshine. Love your family and friends. Make sure they know you love them. Thats what is important. Work on relationships. Truly care for the people you surround yourself with!

Love you!

Camping pics

One of the best parts of camping-reading-paper, books, or magazines! And eating sunflower seeds!

Kyle with his favorite drink

Kyle, winning another round of Phase 10 -should have Jayde's face in that pic-he's not as excited! :-(

Jayde, enjoying wireless internet at a campground-how spoiled we are, eh?

Playing Phase 10 by the light of camp lights and firelight

Love those fires!

Boys took turns chopping wood. Always a contest!!

Couldn't resist but adding this one. One of the Mother's day gifts from Del-yellow rose bush. It bloomed beautifully! Love those flowers!

lessons learned

I'm paying for time off! Seriously-it happens every time! I take more than a week off, and my body sets me straight and lets me know who is in charge. And this time was no different. I had a week off of vacation followed by a scheduled week off. So, at about day 5, the headaches started. Nothing new there. Thats normal for me. Advil and Tylenol are a staple in our house. Except, this time, I scheduled vacation off at the same time as my doc, my chiropractor, and my massage therapist. No joke!!! Well, the lesson learned is that 5 weeks between massages is 2 weeks too long. Last evening, after spending an evening at my dads with family, the visual disturbances started. Along with an incredible hotness. Ingested Tylenol and Advil, and did make it home. Yes, I was driving. Slept fairly well. This morning, I'm feeling not too bad for the first 15 minutes, and then the eyesight starts going weird. Again. Just my luck. So more Tylenol and Advil. I take Jayde to work. Come home, and back to bed. I'm supposed to work tonight, so I made that phone call. You don't want me at work, and unable to see straight. Or in the bathroom. Or in a bed. Had to do that once when it hit at work. Not good!!! So, fortunately my chiro was back in town today. Gave his hands a workout! He's a great masseusse! His diagnosis was 'tight and tender'. I love it!! Apparently theres a reason I had a tension headache that escalated on. So, whats the lesson learnt? No need for vacation? or, Don't stop taking analgesics on vacation? or, take more vacation more often?? Beats me. And I was looking forward to going to work tonight to catch up with my work friends!! Figures. Oh, well, tomorrow night will be here soon enough. So, today, my ice pack and my meds are my good friends. And my bed. Sofa. Oh, ya, the other lesson i Learnt was on the hottest day of the year, its not a good idea to hoe the flower beds and lay in the sun, and not drink plenty of water. I should know these things. I do, actually. Except when you're enjoying it at the time you don't always take time to do the right thing, right???

Time off was wonderful. Two different camping trips. Both 5 days long. Long sleepins. Beautiful campfires. Excellent food. Games. Biking. Walks. Beach. Picking rocks. Even played tennis for the first time in my life. Great times with the family!!

Working this weekend. Then I have 2 weeks of vacation. What will i do this time?? Visit my massage therapist, the first day of my vacation, and her first day back. Gonna start it right. And then I'm going to stay busy enough that my body doesn't realize its supposed to be relaxing. Ha ha! My nephew, Ty, is getting married in a couple of weeks. Thats a perfect way to end my vacation!

Enough screen for me right now. I'm off to hold my ice pack and rest up. Again.

What with my emotions???

Maybe its the hormones or something. But, seriously, I don't like good-byes. I don't like saying good-bye, and I don't like watching someone else having to say good-bye. This isn't about saying good-bye to death, its about just parting ways in regular everyday activities. I've always had a hang up about this. But, I thought I was getting better at this. Until the other day-I can't even remember exactly where we were. I was with Del and the boys and I think we were walking in the mall or something. And I watched people hugging each other, obviously parting ways. Looked like they must have spent some vacation time together and had to go home to different parts. And wouldn't you know it but I walk away with teary, reddened eyes. Jayde, of course, notices me sniffing and asks me whats wrong. And I reply to him, "you know me-any reason to cry!" What else can I say??!! I'd rather avoid a farewell gathering, and not say good bye, than have to go through the emotions-especially in public. I'm a mess with that!!! It doesn't help that if I see someone else tear up, my eyes instantly follow suit and tear along as well! I've tried to assess and diagnose, and figure out where this comes from. Maybe some crazy parting when I was two??? Someone left me behind?? I don't think its anything like this. Unless someone hasn't told me something. :-) Just a sidenote-I've been this sickening since young-When I had surgery at the age of 2, and longterm hospitalization was necessary, apparently I didn't take too well to staying there alone, as well. I admit it. I don't even like saying good bye to my kids or husband, even for a night or two. I'm a sucker for the people i'm close to. My saying is 'If I choose to like you, I love you a whole lot!!' I've been proud of me tho.......i've gotten much better at letting my kids go. I've managed fine with them going to friends houses and such. And I know they'll be fine where they are, cuz I wouldn't leave them somewhere that I'd worry about. It's just that act of saying good-bye, and then leaving.
Don't know how I should finish this post, as I don't know of a great solution or ending to this. I know of others who have this kind of problem, and they seem stable and fine to me. So maybe thats my consolation-I'm not as nuts as I think I am. I do cope with good-byes, and I do say good-bye when it necessitates. But, my emotions on my sleeve gets a little tiring! Reminds me of the Rascal Flatts song.
Or maybe I take the Bible verse literally-laugh with those who laugh, and weep with those who weep. I can do that. Maybe its empathy......caring.......love........craziness...........friendship.......hormones.........lack of sleep...........

Del, the boys, and I are off camping once again. I better clean the house before I go. Cook some real macaroni salad. Throw some clothes in the camper. Hope you're enjoying this summer! Make the best of it. Make the best of the time you're given!

Camping

5 whole days away with the family. Camping. Awesome!!! Pure laziness...... sleeping, walking, shopping, sleeping some more, cooking, campfires.......Yes, it was wonderful!!! Weather wasn't great, but thats okay. It was away from home, and we were together. Can't remember when we last relaxed and slept in like that!!!

Tonight we are catching up at home. Cutting grass, laundry, and putting away stuff. My dad stopped by to get his ears checked. And I syringed them for him, as his wax build-up is crazy!! Then I gave him a hair cut, which in turn, made the boys have their turns. All in all-successful evening. 4 loads of laundry done, 3 haircuts, supper, ears washed. And the evening is not over.

Rained here when we were gone. Just under 4 inches! Will this never end???? Thinking we would get some yard revision done this year, but at the rate its going, I don't know when it will happen.

On Thursday, we are planning to set up camp at a local campground. Close enough for us to go home if needed, and for Del to go to work. I'm so looking forward to biking, and beaching. Really optimistic, I am, that the forecast is wrong, and there will not be continuous clouds and rain. :-( Then I guess we'll read and play games. It will be what it will be!

I'm out of words. Don't know what else to add thats positive....... I'm off to put away laundry.

Happy Birthday!

Yes!! My youngest is a teenager today! Unbelievable, after a few short years, here we are with our youngest being 13 years old. Happy Birthday, Kyle! My recollection of this fine young man being born, are, being admitted to hospital the evening before and preparing for a scheduled c-section. Kind of planned. In utero, this child caused me difficulties-turning, tossing, flipping-when he should have been staying put. This moved up his birthdate to being the 29th, the first section of the day for the doc, coming back from holidays. Being checked my my local doc every other day, to finally having this young man being born safely and without any difficulties was a miracle. And wasn't he the cutest little baby. Round face and little fuzz for hair-light blond with a hint of red. Beautiful blue eyes. And a very short stubby, square tongue. When he scrunched his face to cry, I smiled. (for the first few days). The cute little baby grew into an adorable toddler, who loved to smile by day, and screamed by night. 2-3 hours of screaming a night turned an otherwise wonderful child into a nightmare in the dark. Countless of appts later, the resulting diagnoses of esophageal reflux, finally gave him some meds for this, and the insanity for the parents seemed to have an end. The toddler grew into a fine young lad, blond hair and blue eyes. The likeness of his dad, other than the color of hair and eyes. He loved to smile, play, laugh, and share with his brother. Endless hours of playing hockey, tractors-he kept himself busy. Blondie started kindergarten with a grey front tooth-having bumped it during some sporting event with his brother. And now here we are with my 'baby' almost grown up. Starting grade 8 this fall. He is an inch shorter than I am. No more bending down for hugs. He is still willing and wanting to hug and kiss mom and dad good night. He is still rubbing my back when he hugs me. He still smiles with his beautiful smile, and gets away with too much because of it. He still shares easily with the people around him, cuz thats just who he is. He still gets up early in the morning, and prefers to go to sleep early. He still loves to play his favorite sport of hockey. He loves to spend time with his brother. He adores his brother, but won't admit it publicly. :-)
I'm so proud of my youngest son! His loving spirit is such a blessing. He truly cares for the people around him-I can only hope to guide him through the next few teenage years, and keep his true self intact. So, Happy Birthday to the new teenager!

Can you believe this is my youngest???!!! He was just born the other day.

Happy Birthdays!!!!

Almost thru this month. So far so good



Friday evening was Kelly's bridal shower. I'd post pictures, but I only have four on my camera, and they're not that great. ( thought my camera was being used to take pics, but my nieces camera was being used. We have the same one! So, Hopefully Alyssa will post some) Anyway, I thought the evening went very well. Kelly is sooooo sweet. So grateful and appreciative for anything done for her. She oohed and aahed over everything. Had a good turn out-about 30 adults and 10-12 kids. So hard to know what to expect when you have an open invitation, on a summer Friday evening. Everyone had a chance to mingle and meet. Plenty of food for everyone-at least I brought leftovers home, so no one can say they didn't have opportunity. Kyle was extremely pleased when I brought home the leftovers!! Thank you to Laureen & Michelle for all the help with the event!! And to Alyssa, Stacey, and Dayna for helping with setup. And to those who stayed for clean up. Takes a good team effort to pull off a successful event!!

The evening made some special memories. It actually was a bit difficult planning and getting ready for this event, as this was my moms specialty. She loved to do this!!! So, she was in the back our minds continuously. And on Friday evening, we wished so badly for her to have been there. She would have been beaming with pure joy. Her table clothes covered every table there, and that was our way of including her presence.



Yesterday was the 1 year anniversary of Katelyn's passing. What is a good way to honor this??? Beats me!!! STopped at the graveside last night, as obviously many had already during the day. Then, we spent the rest of the evening at Roger & Anita's. Still so hard, but time does heal. What a precious family!!!



The sun is out today. Need to hang out my clothes on the clothesline. Nothing beats the smell of clothes dried out on the line. And since the forecast is for rain to start tonight, we need to make the best of the sun while its here.



July is the month for birthdays in my family. Started on the 20th with Nathan & Rowan, and we progress thru Roger, Laureen, Kyle, Bria, And end with Ty on Aug 2. Hoping to head over to Roland & Laureens today to spend some time with them. Big 50 for Laureen yesterday-Rolands is coming up in October! Happy Birthday to all these special people!!



Yes, Kyle has invited friends over for Wednesday to celebrate his 13th! I am working MOn, Tues, and Wed night, but will make this work. Have to. He is so excited!! Remember the days of being excited to get one year older??!!



I'm off to make lunch and catch up on the rest of my day. Have an awesome and safe day out there!!

20 years of together!

July 22-Happy Anniversary to me!!! And Del. It is now 20 years of married bliss. Ha Ha......Ups and downs just like anyone else. But, the joy is its still special being together. For me. I guess I shouldn't speak for Del. I'm at work, and Del is at work. What a way to spend the day. We did go out for supper last night. Was wonderful! Improptu and all.



I'm at work today. Steady day so far, and needed to escape for a few minutes so I'm jotting a quick note. Ever wonder if you're doing or employed in the right job? Doing what you're good at? I often wonder if I am. Maybe I should do something else? Am I doing my job to the best of my ability? Ugh!!!! Maybe change careers? It's interesting, cuz I think alot of people go thru this 'phase'.........wondering if, what, when, and where. If only there was a clear cut answer somewhere. Maybe I should drive truck. Be a pig farmer. Waitress. Lawyer. Saleslady. Telemarketer. Veterinarian. Physician. Chef. Teacher. There's so many options!!! Can you imagine? Why is it we think once we have a career we can't switch to another? Many variables, I guess.



So off I go to be the best nurse that I can be today. Don't laugh.

Rambling at 5 am

This is a random blog-I'm musing at this interesting hour. Hopefully most of you are tucked into cozy beds, snoring. Those of you who aren't asleep-I hope all is well. I'm at work again, and thinking. Its rather interesting what you think, and what comes up in conversation at this time of day.

I had an awesome visit with a very dear person tonight. My niece to be stopped in and we caught up on our lives. I'm so proud of Kelly & Ty. They've matured beautifully. Their wedding next month will be such an exciting celebration!

Topics of discussion tonight with my co-workers were across the board. We can talk about anything. From gardening to intense discussions regarding deepest worries/feelings. It truly is a blessing to work with people you can do this with.

It makes me think-how many people have someone they can actually talk to??? Do all of you have a close friend that you could share any information with, and know, that you are loved and accepted regardless of what you've brought into the relationship? Do you have someone who will love you despite the baggage? How about someone to just talk over the nitty gritty things in life? Who will not try to solve your problems, but will just listen and actually hear what you're saying? (There is a difference between listening and actually hearing). For some people it may be a spouse or a partner. For some its a close friend. Some may have have a professional tohelp them with issues. And then there are those that just don't share with anyone. I know it. Yes, there are so many people that simply do not feel the trust and confidence to share their feelings and thoughts with anyone. Very simply put, they feel alone. Now that makes me sad. Cuz everyone needs someone. Its more than just the words to a song. Its a basic need of every human being-to feel love and acceptance. Imagine a mind full of thoughts and words and worries/anxieties/concerns, and no where for those thoughts to go. They just swirl around in your head, and they seem to go faster and faster-like a merry-go-round. Eventually it feels like your brain cannot stop the pace-it just picks up speed, as more and more concerns are added onto the tilt-a-whirl. Eventually, the circuits start to overload, spark, fizzle, and what happens? I think this is where burn out occurs. Quite simply too much, without enough having been unloaded. Onto someone elses load. Thats why friendship seems to be such an important aspect. A true friend is someone who will help unburden that weight. And love no matter what. To help in time of need. To be there thru thick and thin. And still be there when the day is done. And not judge whether decisions being made are right or wrong-just be there cuz its the right thing to do. Cuz we love someone.

And thats the kind of friend I wish and strive to be. I can only keep trying to be the person that people want to be around. And be the person that will love without reservation or conditions.

Thats my rambling for now. I've now successfully dumped/unloaded some of my thoughts. :-) I've found to write out/or type out thoughts actually is quite helpful in sorting out some of my dilemnas/opinions.

Two hours and I'm hoping to head out of here and head home to a warm bed. It will be wonderful!!

mid july update

Made it half way thru this month. So far so good. Even have some exciting news. Have a niece who got engaged last weekend!!! Yay! A wedding is always exciting.

This last week has been spent away from work for me. It has been wonderful to be away and relax. We set up the trailer at a local campground and camped for 4 nights. Had my cousins 2 girls with us. We went home a couple times to shower and water the flowers. Then we went back to the campground to cook over the campfire, relax by the fire, lay on the beach, visit with friends who happened to also be camping, etc.... Was wonderful. Saturday night, Del & I enjoyed spending time with people from Del's work, celebrating the 100th anniversary of their farm. How interesting to hear the family history that made the farm work. I pulled the trailer home early on Tuesday, cuz the weather was not cooperating for us to stay the last day. We managed to clean up camp before it rained, and it started raining 5 miles from home! So glad I packed up when I did!! Set up the trailer at home, and the kids have slept in it since.

Managed to work on my tan on Monday. The one nice day that was sunny and warm, and no stiff breeze blowing us away!

I picked up some clothes for my dad the other day. His were getting kind of sloppy looking. And he actually tried them on and accepted them yesterday. Roland told my dad shortly after mom died, that we had made a deal with her to look after him. And obviously this has impacted dad, because he has brought it up a few times, to question whether this actually happened. I keep telling him yes, and then he behaves again. :-) I think he was actually proud of his hot new jeans I picked for him. He was going to wear them today when he was going to work at the Thrift Shop.

That was my week at home. Awesome. I felt so lazy!!!! I did do laundry and cleaning and such, but no major projects. And wasn't home enough to work on the yard. Next time.

Tonight I'm back at work. First shift of four. What can I say about work???!! Busy, full. It's like you never leave!

Have to finalize shower plans for next Friday. Kelly's bridal shower. Michelle and I are working together on the weekend, and we need to assemble our food lists. Its going to be a good time!

Thats our July so far. Del working, the boys doing their thing, and me doing whatever! :-) Now if we could find some summer weather, it would be wonderful!

July, here we are!

Ahhhhh, how sweet it is.......to come home after work today. Finished another round of shifts. A week off coming up. And, I came home today to find my house being cleaned up. The kitchen help was scrambling to clean off the counters. The dishwasher was being loaded. This was after the hired help had worked in the pasture, pulling out old fence post, for four hours. Then they even cleaned out all the garbages. I love my workers. Yes, my boys did a fantastic job of maintaining 'stuff' while mom and dad were at work. My floors have been washed and vacuumed. The grass cut. All that jazz....... Trying to keep them busy so they can't get into trouble while we're away. And, I didn't cook ahead this round. The family is becoming independent! Yay!!!

The last four days of work have gone really well. Worked with my wonderful niece, Michelle, the last couple of days. Thats an added bonus! Seriously, I work with an awesome group of people. (for the most part)! We play music, laugh-even when its not funny-, cry, work, and pool food. Hugs, tears, sharing of issues, and everything else......well, it makes you appreciate each other. When you spend the amount of hours together with only a couple of people, it bonds you like nothing else can. You're dependent on each other for making a healthy work environment. And for healthy relationships. So, I miss the good friends when I'm away from work, but it makes you look forward to go back when its time.

We are looking forward to going to the city, camping, attending an anniversary party-all in the next week. This along with Del working every day, and maintaining the yard at home. My cousin, Kathy's kids, are coming out on Thursday, and are spending 10 days with us. This is going to be interesting. Two girls, to complete our little family. Should be fun!!!

My nieces are helping me plan/organize a bridal shower for my niece-to-be. we've planned a community shower for July 24. Lots of work, but it will be worth it! They're an awesome couple, and it will be good to honor them. So, have to get my head into that next.

My oldest brother and his wife left on a holiday today. I'm so excited and happy for them! They are planning to drive without a plan. Stop whenever they want. I'm wondering if they're going to make it out of the province! Hope they have safe travels!

I do have to admit I'm a little nervous. It is July once again, and that makes me a little leery. The last few years of July have really sucked, and I'm wishing for a safe month for all. I can tell I'm tense-when I hear running footsteps, I wonder, whats happening! I have to make a concerted effort to relax. Can't let this crazy phobia ruin such a wonderful summer month!

Del & I are celebrating our 20th wedding anniversary in a couple of weeks. How do you celebrate 20 years together? I have to work that day! That should be fun! Lots of good things to anticipate in the next while.........

My friend and the C

It's a record, I'm writing two nights in a row! There's a reason. Have to get this out of my system.......My head is full......to the point where sleep was difficult today. The ride home from work this morning was rather emotional. My heart is heavy. Actually, it feels like its breaking. And not for me, either. A friend called me into a side room this morning, and after the good mornings were out of the way, she informed me that the 'Big C' had struck their family. Her spouse was diagnosed with the dreaded 'C', and further testing was underway to decide how to procede. You know, this makes me so angry and so sad, all at the same time! Why is it every way you turn, this disease is taking someones quality of life and shredding it apart. Yes, I'm an advocate for fighting the disease and winning-you don't necessarily lose the battle when you're diagnosed. But the process is so painful and emotional. Why does a vibrant family, with wonderful summer plans, have to go through this???!! This changes everything. It changes the way you get dressed in the morning-the way you go through even the minutest things in your day. This disease doesn't seem to care who or what you are. Doesn't care how old or young you are. Doesn't care of skin color. Doesn't care how much money you have tucked in the bank, or how much money you can spend in one day. Doesn't even seem to care if you've looked after yourself in the most healthy fashion. Doesn't seem to discriminate between differing belief systems. Doesn't wait till its convenient-actually seems to rear its ugly head when people are least able to 'handle' it. This disease makes me want to kick its a**! Yes, it does make me want to use some foul language. Its an ugly disease! Yes, it can bring people closer, it can make people re-evaluate their priorities. But, can't there be an easier way to accomplish this??! I'm so sad for all the unfortunate souls who have to battle this disease. I feel for the families who have to stand by and support the patient through this crippling disease. Seems to me that I know too many people who are experiencing the ravages of this illness. Life just is not fair. I've copied and pasted the following poem-its been on my mind all day.

What Cancer Cannot Do
Cancer is so limited...
It cannot cripple love
It cannot shatter hope
It cannot corrode faith
It cannot destroy peace
It cannot kill friendship
It cannot suppress memories
It cannot silence courage
It cannot invade the soul
It cannot steal eternal life
It cannot conquer the spirit.

I guess thats the perspective I have to take-there is always hope, faith, and love. Family, friends, community. And so, my friend and her family need extra love and attention. Plenty of prayers. And extra hugs.........

And thats another day dealing with living in this generation!

Mid year rave

Can you believe it?! June 30th already! Where did the spring go?? Oh, yeah, we're still waiting for it.....ha ha. Just over 3 inches of rain this last Saturday morning, and yes, we are once again singing the blues. Or crying the blues. Trying to keep our heads above water. I'd post pictures, but I'm at work, and can't. (Check out Alyssa's blog!) Ditches are full and running over. Fields are full and running over. The water doesn't know which way to run cuz everything is full. So, it just sits there, cuz it can't go down. It can only go up, and you know what they say-what goes up must come down. Obviously thats what its doing in our little corner of the world. Just to draw out my woes a little more......my yard was just getting to the point where we thought we could start moving some dirt around to take care of some of our issues, and now, well, we're back to precious lakefront property.

The one nice thing that came from all this rain, was.........we caught up on some sleep this weekend. Two mornings of sleep ins. Even went grocery shopping together. Watched movies. Was wonderful! Too bad it takes 3 inches of rain to slow us down enough to enjoy relaxing.

Del has been working long hours at work, cuz farmers have been seeding and spraying-all at the same time. I've been working overtime hours, cuz there are just not enough nurses to work all the shifts. Jayde is done school and has been doing jobs at home, playing house keeper and yard man. Kyle is relieved that he only has a half day of school left today.

That is our life in a nutshell. Nothing really exciting. Routine. And that works for me. I'd like a long time of routine. No surprises. Nothing exciting. Just everyday, boring stuff.

Dad is doing well. He is still camping out in his trailer across the road. He's visiting around, going to town, and loving his cell phone. I get such a kick out of watching him on the cell. He is getting and sending texts! Such a 'cool' grandpa! He stopped by yesterday and played 3 games of chess with Jayde.

Oh yeah, forgot to mention, that in our wonderful rain storm, the wind came and took down 3 old beautiful spruce trees, right in front/beside our house. Thankfully, they did not come down on the house.

It's 4 am, and this shift is slowly getting closer to completion. This has been a steady shift. Hospital is overful by 30%. That means we have no beds and are using the emergency room for admitted patients. But, we are still doing a wonderful job, being the caring nurses that we are!

Just to make your morning a little cheerier-imagine-6 months from now-Christmas will be over for another year! :-)

Interlake, east a soggy 'disaster' - Winnipeg Free Press

Interlake, east a soggy 'disaster' - Winnipeg Free Press

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So proud of my hubby!

Have to start tonight by sending out accolades to my husband-for the prominent place he held today on the city's newspaper-on the front page, and page 4!! I am so proud of him!!! He did an interview at work, regarding the farming/cropping issues, and the effects of the weather and current situation affecting the local farmers. They quoted him, and inluded pictures! I'm so impressed and proud! Have I told you how proud I am?? :-))
So, the insurance deadline for coverage for seeding for this year, is the 20th. today. We ahve seeded just under half of what we would have intended. And thats how it will be. The other land will just have to keep drying, get sprayed with Roundup, and get worked over eventually. Get it ready for next year. Make ditches. The stuff that was seeded-well, we'll see how it turns out. Thank God, he's sent us some warm weather this week. Sunshine and warm temps. Awesome!

Even the yard is starting to dry up. There's only small lakes in the front yard. Some ruts are starting to dry a bit. Managed to cut maybe 75% of the grass already! Wow!

I'm back at work after a week off. Or it was supposed to be a week off. I jokingly said at the start of my days off, this will be my first week off in a long time. Well that didn't last long. I was called in for mandatory fitting of N95 masks for the flu pandemic. Then I finally agreed to go in on Tuesday night and work night shift. Then, Thursday night, I'm back on my regular rotation. Tonight I'm on my 2nd night of 4. It's like escaping reality and going to work. Here, I know I can't leave. I'm stuck here, having to deal with whatever comes running thru the door. No escaping this!

I'm gearing up to attend another funeral. I'm getting tired of this. But its a necessary evil. A good friend of mine from work is saying good-bye to her grandpa on Monday morning. So many people having to say too many good-byes. Ugh!

Jayde is officially done school for this year. Hopefully, its grade 10 for him in the fall. Barring a disaster in the final exams, this should actually happen. He says even if he gets 0 on his finals, he'll still pass. Kyle has 6 1/2 days left of school. He's feeling a little ripped off that he still has to get on the bus for school. It's not like they're doing any cramming in of information at this point. Playing soccer, watching movies,,,,,,,,,.........you'd think they could just tell the kids to stay at home and work.

WE did seed a garden last weekend. Kathi & Gerald, and their girls came out for the weekend, and they all pitched in and we got'er done. Filled my whole garden space. Now hopefully those seeds can sprout thru those thick clods of clay! Gerald even helped us turn some bulls into steers. Quite a rodeo we had going last SAturday morning. Gerald has been such a wonderful help when he comes out. He gets right into the thick of things-certainly makes life easier for me. Yes, I was still in the pen, chasing and doing my thing. Just ask Gerald about my wonderful fence vaulting scene, as I'm trying to get out of the way from a newly turned steer. Ha ha!! I felt that for a few days!

I had invited my family to come over for supper last Saturday, as well. Those who came, had a great time, I think. I did, anyway! Thats what counts, right? We barbecued, cooked, sat around and visited. Laughed. You know, just had a relaxing time together. Special times!

My mind has been going thru mixed emotions this last while. I don't know about the rest of you, but to me it seems that this stage of life just never slows down from constant ups and downs. Look around you, and tell me who has not got something going on, that they wish wasn't. Check out your family, friends, and neighbours. Somethings going on in their lives, that we would just like to make better for them. And if you can't think of anyone, you're not looking close enough. No kidding! There's people in need everywhere we look. We're all in need in some form. Some days more than others. Somedays I wish I knew better how to help those in need. It seems there's just not enough that I'm doing for those close to me. Wish I could do more. So, I guess, I just keep trying in my own little twisted way, to love and support those around me. Cuz, yes, that's whats important in life.

Two more nights after this. Jayde is helping out in Wyatt's barn again tomorrow and Monday. Del has to work because people are still seeding and some are spraying their crops. So, lucky Kyle gets stuck doing stuff at home. Sunday is FAther's Day. Can hardly wait to give Del his present! Think he'll love it!! I guess I better make him a lemon pie tomorrow too. Now what will I do for my dad??? Have to think on that!

Beware-its a serious ending.

Its June 5 and it would be hard to tell that by looking out our windows. Its dismal/dreary, with clouds, drizzling rain, and the thermometer shows its all of plus 6. Not hightly motivating to go outside and work on the yard. Not even motivating to work inside. :-)

Sometimes I feel like I'm a broken record. This is a forum for me to talk about what my family and I are up to. Well, its kind of the same old thing for us every day. I found out something the other day and asked the person how long that had been, and he said, "where do you hide that you didn't know that?". I in turn responded, "at the rink or at work". Yes that is still my story.

Jayde's team played their last tournament last weekend. They lost 2 and won 3, for a total of 5 games. His equipment is in the garage, airing out, waiting for a warm and sunny day, for me to wash and dry outside in the sun. He is done with hockey for this season. Finally. Yes, its been fun watching him play at a higher calibre of hockey. And he has had a wonderful time. Developed. And thats why we do it. Jayde now has 2 weeks left of school. Final exams on June 18 & 19. Then its time to put him to work. Makes me think he should get a summer job, but thats rather interesting with us living 11 miles from the closest town. We'll see what we find for him to do. 14 years old is an interesting age-an adult, but not really.

Kyle has one more week left for his hockey season. His two nights a week has been a good experience for him. It was my turn to drive yesterday, and it was a dilemna-do I stay home and farm or do I take the boys?? Andrea helped by solving my problem, Blayze has a birthday this weekend and they're away, so she preferred him staying home. Del wanted me to help on the field, so I wasn't going to just drive Kyle. So, we stayed home. And wouldn't you know, When Del got home, it really started to rain, and 'kiboshed' the farming plan. So, we had supper, and I went for a nap. Kyle has 16 days left at school-just over 3 weeks-and then its summer holidays. Can't wait!

Del's work has been slow, due to the inclement weather. Its not only the farmers that the weather affects. Many businesses are feeling the heat of how to get through another year of tough times. Del continues to work during the day, and evenings and weekends are spent farming. Most of the cattle are on pasture. Good thing Del got those couple hundred of acres seeded a couple of weeks ago, cuz its been too wet to get out there since. Don't know if we will get anything more into the ground. Its a massive gamble , this farming. Totally dependent on something that is not in your control.

Me-well, I've been at work. I'm in the middle of my crazy stretch. Last week I worked days, this week I'm working nights. And this weekend I do 4 days before my week off. Last weekend was spent driving back and forth to the city for Jayde's hockey, in between helping Del on the farm. I have spent a couple of afternoons outside weeding and such. Its so good to be able to do that. I guess tonight I'll haul in all the flower pots so the flowers don't freeze. I haven't planted out anything into the ground, cuz there's forecasted frost for this weekend. Hopefully next week.

One of my nephews, Justin, is part of a band in the city. His band is performing tomorrow night, and my sister has invited us to come watch. So, a friend and I switched some hours and she is coming in to work so I can leave early, so I can head into the city and watch him. Should be interesting. He has sang and played guitar for us at family functions, and our family funerals, but this will be the first time I'll see him play with his band.

Work has been busy. The hospital has been at full capacity. Its been a mix of acute and chronic admissions. Due to confidentiality issues, and nursing in my home community, I don't discuss work situations on my blog. Needless to say, somedays are easier than others. Sometimes I think people wonder why I'm serious most of the time-yes, I've heard that-she can't let loose, yadayada........ I can, you know, just with a few close people, tho. :-) Anyway, between what I deal with at work and with family, It makes me who I am. Thats what you get with me. So, work. We've dealt with some sad situations lately at work. Nothing new really, just over and over, the same stuff. Theres alot of grief and sadness in this world. Time is short. I was the 'lucky' one last week to be on for a young woman that had lost control and rolled her car. Exactly where Katelyn had her accident last year. Another young, beautiful woman. We worked on her, long and hard. We transferred her to the city. I had to go on the transfer with my doc. Quick trip, I'll say. I got to meet with her family. I had the privilege of telling them what happened. If you can call that a privilege. Then I had to walk away, get in my ambulance, and go have lunch, like nothing ever happened. And then go back to work, and carry on like nothing ever happened. And look after some snotty nosed kid, whose mother thought this was an emergency. And treat them like this was a very important situation, and nothing had ever happened. And deal with another family who was upset their mother hadn't had her meat cut at lunch that day, cuz that was much more important than the emergency we had going on in the emergency room. And on and on. Then I got to go home, and hug my sons close. Real close. For a very long time. And my husband. For a long time. Don't want to let go. What if its the last time??? You never know. And thats another day at work. I go to sleep and get up again. And do it all over again. Different people, different situations, different illnesses. You go from life to death, to laughing, in seconds. To dealing with Child & Family Services, to the Coroners Office, to some uneducated parent not giving fever relief. Switching off and on, in a matter of minutes and seconds. With compassion and empathy for everyone. Easier said than done. (By the way-the family took their daughter off life support that evening, so yes, another family is grieving the loss of a special daughter)

Thats what makes me who I am. Live life like its your last day. Live it to the fullest. Love the people that are close to you. Make sure they know! Laugh easily, cuz somedays thats all thats left to do. Crying just isn't enough some days. Yes, nurses have a sick sense of humor, but that seems to be the easiest way to cope with what life deals them on a daily basis. And thats why we're good at what we do.

Enjoy your day! Live, laugh and love. Hard.