Sunday, March 29, 2009

Home, Sweet Home

Seriously, I truly love coming home! Settling back into the house, with all the stuff from the weekend, yes, its a chore, but its so good for my little family to be together, at home.

Kyle's team had their last game this morning. I thought Kyle played much better today, so it was with some relief that we left that tournament, feeling a bit better about things. Four hours after leaving the rink, we were back home-my second home-the hospital. There are my parents-Room 12 and Room 14. Cozy in their beds. Would be kind of cute, if it wasn't all a bit much. I thought Dad looked good. My brother informed me he looked much better today than yesterday. Must be something to do with the liver enzymes coming down from their through the roof high, and now being able to take fluids by mouth. Oh, he loved the tea, soup, and juice he got for supper. Mom on the other hand, well, I thought she was even more tired than when we admitted her on Wednesday. They've now limited her visitors to immediate family only, as there were just too many people stopping by. She's okay with her kids chatting beside her, but when others show, its too much effort for her to keep up to things. I'm meeting with the home o2 people tomorrow, and mom and dads house, to set up home oxygen, when she is able to come home. When???? Don't know. She is absolutely not ready to come home at this time. Will she rally? I don't know. Time will tell. She is so worried about dad and that is not helping. Her doc is wonderful, and will do almost anything for her. He will not let her go home, if she isn't ready, or if he doesn't feel she will manage. So, its day by day for now. Regarding dads issues, hopefully a CT appt will be available in the next couple days, and will enlighten us whats going on there.

Hockey-well, thats a wrap for this weekend! Kyle's team won one and lost two. Jayde's team won one, lost two, and tied one. Jayde played defence for the last two games, due to team injuries. Apparently he did alright. He said he had a wonderful time. He said he ate lots all weekend, and had a great time getting to know other kids. The hockey was fun for him-and challenging, which helps to make it fun.

I'm going to unpack my suitcase. Maybe even start the washing machine. Get a head start on settling back into 'home' mode. Whatever that is.

Friday, March 27, 2009

my soap opera

What can I say??? Its just getting better........ Not only is my mother in the hospital, but now my dad is admitted as well. He was admitted two doors down from my mom, with pancreatitis. What next????? He has been having some epigastric discomfort, and had chalked it up to stress. Then, this morning, apparently had some vomiting issues. My sister booked him in for a clinic appt, and after being seen by the doc, and bloodwork done, tada, an admission. He is on IV fluids tonight, without having anything by mouth. We'll see. A possible CT will come next week, depending how the weekend goes.

And, I'm not there. I'm starting to think, that when I go to the southwestern portion of the province, that bad things are bound to happen. Del, I, and the boys, left yesterday, for Jayde to go to his tournament weekend. And it all hits the fan! Good thing the rest of the family is there to take over. I've spoken with mom a few times tonight. Stressed of course. worrying about whats wrong with dad. What the heck is going to happen next?

So, hockey. Jayde's team played two games today, in the Director's Cup. Jayde had a good day. Scored a goal and an assist in the first game. They won the first game 6-2. They lost 6-2 in their second game. I didn't see much of that one, cuz I was on the phone, figuring out what was going on at home!!! After that game, Del went to the WHL parent info meeting, and the banquet. Kyle and I left to travel south 3 hours to his tournament. And we made it. Felt like forever.

So, I had my mountain top experience on my ride to here. I had to drive over Riding Mountain on my way south. Linda, don't tell Del if you're reading this tonight, okay??? :-) I opened the engine on that truck, and cranked up Nickelback, and we flew over that hill. Ha ha. Therapy at its best. Speed and loud sounds!!! I wasn't an idiot, I tell you. Just a little bit extra sometimes. My, that felt good. I came out driving at speed limit, and all was good. Cleared the cobwebs out of my brain!

We're calving at home. Del's brother is checking on the cows. We're at 11 so far this last week. Hopefully it goes okay.

I have to mention the motel room we stayed at last night, and Del is at for the next two nights. What a dump!!! We had a kitchenette suite. I don't know how to adequately describe the rooms/suite. Other than, not clean, and outfitted with greatly used furniture. And the smell, acutally the stench-pure stale smoke! Off to Walmart across the street for Febreze. And the laughs we had when we pulled back the blankets. Torn blankets and sheets. Oh, the joys of playing hockey and renting motel rooms in rural Manitoba! The kitchenette-well i wouldn't want to cook or eat there. I only put a couple things in the fridge and thats it. Bought Lysol wipes to clean table and counters/dressers. Cable tv-well, supposed to be, but that was the most farmer cable I've ever seen in my life! At least we didn't have to drive an hour to the rink. 5 minutes. And a great many laughs. Remind me of the laughs when I start scratching cuz of bed bugs next week. Ugh!! Better not!!

The motel room tonight, is small, but clean. Big move up for us from last night!!!

Well, thats my life today. Tomorrow might be a whole different story.......who knows.........

Oh, yeah, have to comment about making it to the NHL. The chance of making it to the big league, is probably as good a chance as making it big in the lottery. You'd never guess that by the parents conversations at the rink. Not all, but certainly some. No pressure, boys. Just play your hearts out, while 150 scouts with big white clipboards watch you. And parent and coaches, expect the world!!!! Meat market, is what comes to mind.......things said like-he's so small, or, hmmm, his parents are small, or, his parents are big, or , he's too slow, or, his hair is too long, or, he doesn't brush his teeth, ha ha, got ya? But, seriously, its rather nerve racking, I think, for the kids. Need nerves of steel, or a really good focus to stay focused on the game, and not the show on the sidelines. Great experience for the kids on the team. Team bonding, making friends, listening to other adults, responsibilities-all that good stuff. Wonderful experience for Jayde! I'll check with him on Sunday when its over, and see what he got out of this weekend....

I'm off to meet the parents on Kyles team. Apparently they're meeting in a room down the motel line. It's all about people, you know!
Have a great night!

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

mom-updated

Well, wasn't this an interesting day....... I went to work for an overtime shift. Mom came for her scheduled appt this afternoon. Actually, I had her come early and go for blood work and a chest x-ray. She saw her doc, and he concluded he wanted to admit her. She is so nauseated, and short of breath, that he wanted to give her some relief for those issues. So, she is on a slow intravenous, for medication purposes and slow hydration, and she is using oxygen, which is giving her relief at this point. So, that is the update.......don't know what I'll come up with next!

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Mom

My mom had her oncologist appt today. Her CT results are in. The news is not good.
The nodules in her lungs have increased in size and in numbers. Not only has the cancer metastasized to her bones, but has also moved into her liver and an adrenal gland.
This has happened while she has been on oral chemotherapy. There are no other medical treatment options that are viable at this point. She has has difficulty tolerating the chemo, and to continue would be futile. So, her last week of chemo medication has been 'scrapped', and she will be placed into a Palliative Care Treatment mode. She will be treated for her symptoms, and kept as comfortable as possible.
Her lungs are also filling up with fluid again, and will probably need to be drained in the near future. This will be done on a as needed basis.

So, our lives go on, we just change the jist of how we deal with the circumstances. We don't have a time line for mom, but we don't have one for ourselves either.........time will tell.
Hopefully, once the oral chemo effects wear off, she will find a little strength and rally a bit. We'll see............
So grateful they are close by..............
Thats it from here today............

McDonald's & hockey

Ugh!!!! I could kick myself tonight! I gave in to temptation tonight as Garvis drove thru McDonalds drive thru, and yes, I ordered myself a Big Mac. Wrong move!!! I haven't eaten junk like that in awhile, and I learnt my lesson tonight. All the way home from the city, belching and stomach rolling. GROSS! I've eaten Tums, with no relief. Crud, pure crud. I've been so good-not eating junk on the road. I have no appetite for that crap. And I blew it tonight. Actually, lets view it as reinforcement of why I shouldn't order it again. I'm sure I'll order a Big Mac again someday, but it will be awhile.

Yes, its midnight. And, I'm still up. Got home 20 minutes ago. Went to check the cows. And now I'm back in the house. Del & Jayde are not home yet. You're thinking, what is with these people???? Sometimes we wonder the same thing. The thing is, this is a ridiculously crazy week for the boys and their hockey schedules. And the cows started calving the end of last week. And the weather is getting suckier by the day.
So.........hockey. Here's the update. Jayde's directors cup, regional team, had a practice on Sunday, and played a game tonight, 2 1/2 hrs away, at 815 pm. Apparently they lost 4-2. So, they're still on their way home. Kyle's regional team, practiced on Sunday, and will play a game tomorrow night. Kyle started his 4 on 4 hockey in the city tonight. 2 nights a week, until the first week in June. Pure and simple fun, and hard skating. It was awesome to walk into that city rink tonight!!! People we hadn't seen since last spring, greetings all around, it was wonderful!!! And Kyle and his buddy, Blayze, had a great time! They skated, and bonded with their 'city' friends. And, they came off the ice, smiling. Grinning, actually!!! Pumped!!! 1 1/2 hrs of end to end skating. No off-sides, no icing the puck, no penalties, just pure and simple skating and playing with the puck. The guy in charge of the team, was reffing, and guiding the kids. Putting the fun into hockey. A great work out for the kids, and putting fun into the game, with no pressure for winning, or performing for the parents in the stands!!! Kyle and I got a ride into the city with Garvis and Andrea-its so wonderful to be able to share the driving with awesome friends! Tomorrow night, we're off to 1 1/4 hrs away. Wednesday night, Kyle is off, and Jayde has practice-almost next door. In our home town. What a break for us!! Thursday, we're off to start our weekend. Jayde has to be at his teams hotel between 4 & 5 in the afternoon. 3 hrs from here. Kyle needs to be at his tournament Friday evening, to be at the rink for 8 am on Saturday. Its going to be an exciting weekend!!!!
So the cows started calving a little early this year. Caught us off guard. Oh, well. Might as well get it over with. Last night, i got to do my first internal of the season. Last year I did not witness one cow birthing, and we assisted none. Last night, Del checks cows, comes in and says, another one is in labor. An hour later, he checks again, and no progress on hooves out the back. So, I get dressed and go out with him, all prepared to help out. We actually got the cow into a pen by her self, and into the head gate. Calves hooves are out the back end by a couple of inches. And I volunteered to do the internal and see whats going on. It didn't take long to decipher that those were the calves hind hooves. That means the calf is coming backwards. I've not delivered a backwards calf before. Can we pull it???? Will it fit. I'm thinking the pelvis is a little small, and once you start pulling, you're committed, and it better work. I can feel the calf is aligned correctly-yes, I felt its bottom and the tail was in place. So, we decided to put on the chains to pull this calf. Put the rope on the chains hook, and we go to work. We pull with the cows contractions, and my hand is up its back end, trying to stretch and make it easier on the poor cow. We pull and pull with not much progress, and I'm thinking maybe this is a bad idea. So, I go in and phone a neighbour for advice. He is wonderful and always so helpful. He offers to come right over and check it out. I haven't even made it back out to Del, before we hear his truck on his way. He assesses the situation, decides I was right, but he needs an official calf puller-its like a pulley system. He goes home, gets his apparatus, and hooks her up. Wheeled that big beautiful calf right on out of there. Another girl!!! Work on her to get her breathing warmed up, dried off..........Another success story. And she's still alive!!! Both mom and baby!!! Hows that for a play by play of a bovine birth?? I thoroughly enjoyed that experience. What a rush!! I don't mind that kind of work at all. If I didn't have a million other responsibilities, and jobs, thats would be therapeutic.
Work has been frustrating. I am working full-time all winter, and it seems like thats not enough. We are so short of part-time/casual help. Any time an RN is on vacation, calls in sick, or needs time, there is no one to do relief duty. The one part-time nurse, and the one casual nurse, are working all they can, beyond the call of duty, and its not enough. The full-timers are encouraged/required to pick up the slack. So I've picked up 20 hrs on my days off. No rest for the wicked, I guess. People wonder why nurses burn out???? I can tell you why-not enough time away from their work situations. I tell you I don't go to a shift anymore without my glasses, contact case/solution, makeup, and extra clothes-just in case I'm required to stay because the next shifts staff is unable to make it in. Anyone looking for nursing positions????? We've certainly got some at our facility!
Tomorrow-Mom has her Telehealth appt with Cancer Care. They have her CT and blood results. We shall see how effective this oral chemo has been. I will try to do an update here tomorrow, for those of you who might be interested.
Well, some relief received from the Tums, but I don't know if its enough to relax in bed. Del & Jayde aren't home yet.......gonna be some tired boys at the breakfast table in the morning!

Lesson learned-stay away from the fast food lineup!!! Pack food for the weekend away!

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

St. Patricks Day

What a day this has been!!! I'm in no mood for celebrating St. Patty's day , as my sister called it this morning. I have completed 4, 12 hour shifts, and I should be be celebrating. But, instead, its been one of those days. Ever have one of those days where trouble just happens? Everywhere?? Had a meeting at work today. Oh boy! Three hours later, wrapped it up, but it still wasn't 'over'. Busy day with patients. Some better than others. Then, my dad brought my mom to work. She was feeling short of breath. Her ankles were swollen, and couldn't speak a whole sentence without stopping for breath. So, the good old nursy daughter that I am, I changed her meds, added one back into the mix, and told her to go home and pee all afternoon. Which she did. Hopefully she will fell better by tomorrow. Finished work at 715, and 'fly' out to Kyle's game, 15 minutes away. He lost game 2, best of three series, so now they're tied at 1 game each. Jayde's team lost again in overtime, and they are now out of the playoffs, Yes, Del had Jayde and Trent at their hockey game 1 hr 15 min away. Then I'm home 20 minutes this evening, and Del calls-the truck won't start. Can I come get them???? He asks for cell numbers of other parents that were there, and he and I both try to call someone who might have room to take all three of them home. Along with the equipment! Yay, a dad has room. Actually, I don't know how much room he had, but he was kind enough to go back and give Del and the boys a ride. I phoned CAA and made arrangements to have the truck towed to a Ford dealership for repairs tomorrow. Hopefully, its an easy fix.......Now I'm waiting for the phone to ring, to go pick up my family!
Yeah, I'm bitching. Yeah, I'll get over it. Yeah, I'm going to get a good sleep in. I think I'm even going to have a nap tomorrow.
Oh, yeah, I have a grade 12 student putting in 70 hours of job shadowing. I'm really impressed! 14 hours in, and he's fairly independent. A nurse in the making! There is hope in the nursing profession....... :-)
OH, yeah, I had an interesting experience yesterday at work. Got to work with Michelle, and Alyssa came to work to job shadow. Now thats a first. Three of us together. I was so proud of 'my girls'. They are very special, and are both wonderful, compassionate nurses. Oh, to be a new grad!
Feeeling lazy all of a sudden........wonder why....................don't want to lay down.................might never get up again......................gotta keep chewing gum..............................
one more thing.......the Ice dawgs play at home tomorrow night. They are down 2 games to 0 in their series of best of 7. They've been wasted both games-embarrassingly so!!!! Think they'll find some gas somewhere to not be embarrassed again? They keep this up and their playoffs will be over before it really began. It might be my last game with them tomorrow, thats actually a sad thought................suck it up boys!!!!

Sunday, March 15, 2009

middle of march, already!

March 15-can you believe it??? Where is the time going? this month is half over, and i thought it just began!
I am on a stretch of day shifts. Today is day 2 of 4. So far so good! Can't discuss work on here-small community, confidentiality, and all that good stuff. But the stories!!! Imagine away!!

Hockey-well, that has been interesting! Kyle's team played game one of their series yesterday-best of 3. And they won, 3-0!! They have not won against that team all winter, and they did it!! I didn't see it, but apparently our goalie was spectacular! Way to go, Keenan! Jayde-his winter team played game 1 of their best of 3 series, and they played into double overtime, and lost. Haven't heard when game 2 will be played. So him and his buddy are playing on their regional team this weekend. They played yesterday, and lost 6-4. Today they play 3 hours away, and lucky Del gets to take them! Jayde was so excited last night; he scored the first goal of the game. Sounded like a lucky bounce, but he'll take it.

Calving is getting closer 2-3 weeks away, and those babies should start coming. Hopefully the weather warms up a bit.

My mom and dad-well, they're holding it together. 2 weeks left on the oral chemo. She went for her CT on Tuesday, and all CT and blood results will be reviewed and discussed on Mar 24.

Here's a glimpse into my youngest son's mind-it made me smile. Thursday evening, he asks me, are you going to be home after school tomorrow? I tell him, yes. He asks me again, and i reply yes. And then, he says, really?? By this time, I'm wondering, what??? So, I ask him, is that okay if I'm home after school? He says, yes, thats wonderful! I'm wondering what is going thru his mind, and I ask , is something wrong? He says, no, I just like having you home after school. AWWWWwwww, that cutie of mine. He gives me a big smile. I'm a pushover! He could have asked me for almost anything at that point. Its a reminder to me of even tho my boys are growing up and very independent, they still like having mom and dad around, even tho they don't admit it very easily. Love my family!!!!

Alright, I'm off to check my patients. Have a wonderful day!

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

winter won't give in!

Ever feel so tired you don't think you can move?? yes, that's how I'm feeling right now, and its only 143 am. That means I've got 5 hours to go on this shift. Augh!!! I wasn't cut out to work nights; except I can get more done on the side if I work nights. Maybe thats why I'm tired.
Can you believe it?? Its Mar 11. Already!! And it was -24 on the way to work with a wind that was at 200 miles an hour. Okay, maybe thats an exageration! It's that cold, but its windy, but not quite that windy. I'm anticipating spring. Sometime.
The boys are still playing playoff hockey. Both their teams survived their last rounds, and are moving on. Jayde's team plays game 1 tomorrow night of their best of three series, and Kyles team will play on the weekend. Jayde's team hosted Provincials last weekend and so they had a bye into that tournament. There team did not bad. But not great either. They won the first two, tied the third, and then lost in the last 2 games. They lost the bronze game. So disappointing for them. Jayde played well.
Jayde followed up the day at the rink on Sunday, by getting sick on Monday. He came home from school with the achy flu. Fever, and hurting all over. Went to school this morning, but got sick again at noon. Stayed there, and went to hockey practice in the evening. Nothing like advil and tylenol to help you get through!!! I had the same flu on Monday, and I still fell a touch of it.
I had to laugh last night. Del was telling me how Jayde ate at the rink on Sunday. His appetite is voracious! Del gave him $20 to buy supper while Del was a host for the team playing. So on Monday Del asked Jayde where the change was, and Jayde got him his change. $2. Yup. That's right. $2. Del asked him what he ate, and he said he'd been so hungry after those games, he'd had 2 cheeseburgeres, 2 taco salads, and 2 chocolate milks!! Can you imagine??!! And then he ate again at home after all that. And its not like he didn't eat all weekend before that!! A sign of a growing boy, I guess!!
My cousin, Kathi, her husband , Gerald, and their girls also were over this last weekend. We had a wonderful time with them staying at our house!!!!
Mom went for her follow-up CT today. Laureen and Michelle took her, thankfully. They were unable to do an infused CT, so she drank the contrast, and then they did the CT. She has that appt on Tues, March 24. We'll see what the verdict is then. She has another 10 days left of her oral chemo, hopefully she'll get some energy back after that!!
Went to a friends grandmas funeral this morning. She sounded like she was a wonderful woman!! Makes you think of all the people who've gone 'before us', and the ones who are expected to go soon.
Can someone please, please, please, send some spring weather???!! Sunshine, and more sunshine. And warm temps, please!!!??