i need to organize my thoughts

So, here I am, couldn't sleep, and I decided I should get some of my thoughts out of my head, so I could relax and get some sleep eventually. Maybe I should just kick myself for the evening nap I had, or maybe it has something to do with working night shift and being at the rink late the last couple of nights. Whatever.... maybe I should do a factual update first. Maybe no one really cares what occupies my time, but here goes anyway. My last post had me whining about my migraine, and yes, I've had a sickening headache almost all week. So I was very thankful for the relaxing weekend at home last weekend! Here's last weeks schedule-
Saturday-home
Sunday-home, this is the first winter weekend I can remember being at home with the kids, with no hockey. I didn't go anywhere-felt like crap! Del had to load bales all weekend. Trying to clean up farm stuff before heading off to work!
Monday-off to the chiropractor, home and I took Jayde to practice in the evening, Del took Kyle to his game, even tho he didn't play due to his injury. But, he's a team player and went behind the bench with his team!
Tuesday-home during the day-trying to work on catching up on farm paperwork. I do all the farm books on computer, and I procrastinate with this job until it piles up too much, and then I spend days and get it done. In the evening Kyle's team had a game and so we went and watched his team lose. Kyle didn't enjoy that at all. He was quite upset that he was injured and not able to help his team. He actually left the rink 'crying' and saying he would be playing next game-as if he's that big a difference! :=)
Wednesday-what did I do???? worked on farm books, napped, read, cooked, ate Advil/Tylenol all day, and then took Jayde to his hockey game in the evening. His team lost, but Jayde had two of his teams 3 goals. He was happy for that!
Thursday-time to get ready for work. Yes, I finished enough of the farm books to do my GST return. Off to the chiropractor again in the afternoon to find relief for the neck/back/headachy thing! All this pain is sure to lead to some long term results, I hope! Del & Jayde left at 5 for Jaydes away game, and I dropped off Kyle and Blayze for their away practise. Then it was off to work for a 12 hr night shift! I sure so love those! Not! actually, I don't mind the night shift-it's the lack of ability to sleep during shifts thats the difficulty!
Friday-home from work and dropped into bed-napped off and on till noon. Note to anyone who tries to work night shift-don't drink too much during your shift, cuz it all catches up when you're trying to sleep! So up at noon, and what did I do?? not much, can't get motivated. Oh, yeah, Jayde was home from school, with the stomach flu. Del called me at work at 3 am, gagging, cuz jayde was puking. Didn't make it to the toilet and someone had to clean it up. Ha, ha-Del apparently couldn't handle it and Jayde had to help him clean up-lucky for me I'm at work! My mom & dad stopped by Fri afternoon-that was nice. They hadn't been by in awhile. And, then, I went back to work for another 12 hr night! Del & the boys actually stayed home to relax.
Saturday-home from work and slept till 11 am. Up and in the shower so we can go to the rink! I took Jayde to the league all star game for his level. Was his teams safety-there's no better place to be during a game, than on the bench! smells great, wonderful comments, the feel of the game.....mmmmmm.... Kyle got picked up by a dear friend for his game, as Del was once again loading bales. What would we do without good friends??? and, yes, Kyle did play, and loved being back on the ice! After Jayde's game, I came home for 20', picked up Del and went for a quick supper to Chicken Chef, before the Ice Dawgs game. I love spending time with these kids-ok, they're older kids! But its alot of fun! Stopped at work for a chat after the game, and then finally home! I think my eyes were feeling alittle tired/dry by this time. Contacts!!
Sunday-TODAY! I have to admit-I slept in. I was just too tired to bear getting up early enough to get it together to go to church. Hey, I did not have a headache today. Maybe it was worth it to sleep in! My family was coming over today, so we did some house cleanup this morning. I had put a couple of roasts and potatoes in the oven last night, so lunch was on-simple! My parents, brothers, their wives, and some of their kids came over. Let me think-15 people, right?? Great easy lunch-roast, baked potatoes, caesar salad, some nut/orange/lettuce salad, bean salad, bread, buns, and a variety of desserts like lemon pie, choc. cake, german choc. cake, rhubarb crisp, ice cream..... it was so good. Thank you to the family and Sobey's for the good food! And the afternoon was very good-we even visited, and didn't sleep! Michy and I traded back/neck massages-wow, she's good with her hands!! Everyones gone by 5, and Del & the boys watched the Super bowl, while I read, and watched the half time show. and then I fell asleep reading, so, now I'm awake!
Why is it that when I sleep all night, I could nap all day. But when I work nights, I can't sleep during the day! Something wrong with that picture.
So, my family celebrated my moms 67th birthday today. She's amazing! I wish I had her energy and ability to get things done! Actually her b-day isn't until the 12th, but they came out to visit this weekend, so I thought I'd invite family over to celebrate since she was here. And, we discussed the upcoming 50th wedding anniversary, this June! How many people do you know can celebrate their 50th when they're only 67. Other than me, that is!! We actually discussed this rationally with each other. And, I think we made progress on plans! We will celebrate the event the first weekend in July-hopefully God will bless us with a rain free weekend. And hopefully the spring won't be a wet one, so we can have this event outdoors, without everyone having to wear hip waders!
So, this next week is about hockey and work. I'm typing in red, b/c the boys hockey teams are red/black/white, and I'm pysching up for their teams to win this week! Hopefully! Kyles team plays their 3rd game tomorrow, of a best of 3 series. That means whoever wins goes on to play the next round of playoffs-provincials. Jayde plays a league game at home tomorrow night. Does anyone care what we're doing this week?? Here goes-Monday-chiro appt, and hockey in two towns. Tues-massage appt(to relax those muscles!!!) and hockey in two different towns again! Wed-12 hr day shift, and Jayde either has a practise or game in the evening, and Kyle has basketball practise at 745 am. Thurs-8 hr day shift and Kyle has a game in the evening. I don't think Jayde has hockey. Fri-12 hr day shift, Jayde has a game, I think, and the Ice Dawgs play. Saturday-Kyle has an away game, and Jayde has a home game in the evening. Is anyone wondering why I'm getting headaches and keeping the local massage therapist in business?? She keeps my head on straight, so I can wake up and go wherever the day takes me!
No, I'm not complaining-I could be at home, with nothing to do, and driving myself crazy over that! That's just not an option!
I feel like I should follow up with something deep, but don't know what to say. My niece got me thinking the other day, about ethical dilemnas. Anyone feel like they've had an ethical/moral dilemna? I guess it depends where you go, or what you do, to see what you're faced with? How about-how do you know you're doing what you're supposed to be doing? Right job??? How do you know?? Maybe we're missing an opportunity, just because we're ignoring a little voice! When is it a good enough reason to switch jobs? How do you deal with a dilemna involving a good friend? Is it better to put up with something, than to discuss it, and risk friendship? Maybe no one else has these kind of questions or situations that arise, I don't know. Maybe its being in the mid 30's-are you supposed to think about it so much? I mean the questions, not the age. No, my age isn't bugging me! When is it too late to go back to school? You know, I've always had this dream about becoming a therapist/counsellor/pyschiatrist-sick, huh?? Too late to go to school, not! But, would it be worth it?? Maybe I just want too much. There's so much I'd like to do. How about a funeral director? Mortician? Rock singer?? :=) (Yeah, that's pushing it! I know) But Nursing, now that's fulfilling-some days. Maybe its good to do what you've done for a long time. I've listened to some people talk about their employment dilemnas, I know alot of people think about this... oh, what to do?
Go to sleep, get up and go to work, I guess! Paycheck! Somedays, it drives you. And thats okay. Cuz, love isn't buying the groceries!
Man, so many words... I guess I should talk more during the day. I'm logging off now, to make my 5oth anniversary to do list. If any one has some ideas, please let me know! Have a good week! Be safe, and share a smile with the person next to you-it might be the only one they get all day!~