a deef grief-overwhelming at times, isn't it?

The funeral service is done. What can I say about it? It was beautiful. The video that Kelly had put together played numerous times before the service, and it reminded us of precious memories of Kate. The service had alot of music/singing which Kate loved. Tributes were sung and read.
Now's the hard part. How do you move beyond the busy-ness of planning the events that were done, and deal with the actual loss of a loved one. A deep aching sadness just overtakes. Last night Del, I and the boys went to a friends house to spend time together. I looked at pictures that had been taken yesterday, and it really hit me of all the precious people and precious time we're given. I really grieve for the immediate family in the loss of a daughter and a sister. Bethany's best friend is not there to laugh or talk to, Tyrone and Kelly will plan a wedding and future family and Auntie Kate will not be their "right hand man", Nathan will not have his big sister cheering on his favorite sports with him, and Rog & Anita, well, they will have to lay their dreams to rest that Kate had so much potential and promise for. Yes, they can focus on precious memories, but it's so sad and difficult for me to imagine moving beyond and coping with this. They will, I know that. But, in the mean time, how do you put your feet forward and keep moving?
Thanks to my friends who tolerated me last night. Friends are amazing. Del and my boys are amazing. I have a great support system. They have put up with and helped with arrangements. They've tolerated the disaster in our house so we could help someone in need. Kyle had a birthday on Tuesday, and we did not get to spend it with him, but he knows that was necessary. We certainly appreciated Rol, Laureen, and their kids for making the day special for him. Thank you!
Yesterday also reminded me of 3 years ago when we came so close to losing Jayde. A miracle is what saved Jayde that day, and we are so thankful for that. To lose a child-I can't imagine anything worse. I can't imagine picking up and carrying on having lost him. Our boys are so precious!! It also makes me wonder why Roger and Anita weren't granted that miracle as well. If only we could give that to them.

Yeah, my heart aches for them.