Rambling at 5 am

This is a random blog-I'm musing at this interesting hour. Hopefully most of you are tucked into cozy beds, snoring. Those of you who aren't asleep-I hope all is well. I'm at work again, and thinking. Its rather interesting what you think, and what comes up in conversation at this time of day.

I had an awesome visit with a very dear person tonight. My niece to be stopped in and we caught up on our lives. I'm so proud of Kelly & Ty. They've matured beautifully. Their wedding next month will be such an exciting celebration!

Topics of discussion tonight with my co-workers were across the board. We can talk about anything. From gardening to intense discussions regarding deepest worries/feelings. It truly is a blessing to work with people you can do this with.

It makes me think-how many people have someone they can actually talk to??? Do all of you have a close friend that you could share any information with, and know, that you are loved and accepted regardless of what you've brought into the relationship? Do you have someone who will love you despite the baggage? How about someone to just talk over the nitty gritty things in life? Who will not try to solve your problems, but will just listen and actually hear what you're saying? (There is a difference between listening and actually hearing). For some people it may be a spouse or a partner. For some its a close friend. Some may have have a professional tohelp them with issues. And then there are those that just don't share with anyone. I know it. Yes, there are so many people that simply do not feel the trust and confidence to share their feelings and thoughts with anyone. Very simply put, they feel alone. Now that makes me sad. Cuz everyone needs someone. Its more than just the words to a song. Its a basic need of every human being-to feel love and acceptance. Imagine a mind full of thoughts and words and worries/anxieties/concerns, and no where for those thoughts to go. They just swirl around in your head, and they seem to go faster and faster-like a merry-go-round. Eventually it feels like your brain cannot stop the pace-it just picks up speed, as more and more concerns are added onto the tilt-a-whirl. Eventually, the circuits start to overload, spark, fizzle, and what happens? I think this is where burn out occurs. Quite simply too much, without enough having been unloaded. Onto someone elses load. Thats why friendship seems to be such an important aspect. A true friend is someone who will help unburden that weight. And love no matter what. To help in time of need. To be there thru thick and thin. And still be there when the day is done. And not judge whether decisions being made are right or wrong-just be there cuz its the right thing to do. Cuz we love someone.

And thats the kind of friend I wish and strive to be. I can only keep trying to be the person that people want to be around. And be the person that will love without reservation or conditions.

Thats my rambling for now. I've now successfully dumped/unloaded some of my thoughts. :-) I've found to write out/or type out thoughts actually is quite helpful in sorting out some of my dilemnas/opinions.

Two hours and I'm hoping to head out of here and head home to a warm bed. It will be wonderful!!